Satan uses many tactics, specific to people’s individual weaknesses, in order to destroy one’s joy in this life. For me, for as long as I can remember, like millions out there, my obsession with physical appearance has formed an emptiness inside me so great that it could only be filled completely by our Creator.
Having finally begun my journey for personal discovery through Christ, my life focus has shifted from my time and efforts spent analysing my exterior appearance into analysing my heart. I am no longer disgusted with how I look on the outside, but am disgusted by the wickedness hidden in me on the inside. God has bestowed upon me the truth, that provesvanity is shallow and offers no insight into who I really am as a person. This body is simply my temporary shell, concealing within, my soul, which is the very essence of my being. My inner spirit, my soul, is the core of who I am, not my physical body. Recognizing this allows me to see beyond my external casing, which is merely a vessel that will wither away with time.
In knowing this truth, I no longer gaze at myself in the mirror scrutinizing every minor detail and flaw that is visible on the outside. Through a changed mindset by God, I have found much greater importance, in searching for defects and weaknesses in my character. True happiness does not come from attractiveness, but rather from a peace that is generated from within when our soul is at rest. I now know it is imperative I concentrate on the blemishes that stain my soul rather than the ones visible on my skin. The hours and hours wasted over the years dissecting my outer surface have been spent in vain, as it has only made me more self-conscious and hateful towards myself. Having given so much attention to vanity has made me self-centered, resentful towards others, ungrateful for my many blessings, insensitive and just plain unhappy. It has prevented me from discovering who I am really am and the purpose God has set in place for me.
It has only been through my growing love for God that I have been able to identify the entrenched sin and evil that has been festering inside me, sapping me of joy and the ability to love and care for fellow mankind. This is where my focus needs to be: correcting my impiety, not my appearance. My vanity has blinded me from the truth, God’s truth, and has been a major barrier prohibiting me from appreciating all the many wonderful provisions God has blessed me with throughout my entire life. My Lord has exposed to me the destructive power of vanity, a force so potent that it has effortlessly kept me tied up in bondage. It is a sickness, a disease that corrodes one’s ability to feel pleasure, wonder, and splendor.
I can only imagine how much longer I would have remained caught up in myself, in my own self-interested bitterness, if it were not for Jesus entering into my life. This truth is not something that one can discover on their own, but can only be revealed by the Holy Spirit. Satan is far too devious and powerful for us to debunk his lies in our own strength. Without God’s intervention, we are left alone and susceptible to the dark one’s attacks. Once he has dominated our minds, he will then convince us with ease that we are weak and futile, without hope and alone.
We are insubstantial beings and require the help of One greater than ourselves and satan himself to see through his deception.
"We are NOT human beings on a spiritual journey. We are spiritual beings on a human journey."
-Stephen R. Covey
Edited by UnwaveringFaith, 04 September 2012 - 11:01 AM.