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My name is Amber, but I like to go by Niki. I am 24. I have 3 kids. I have been back and forth as a Christian, since I was 13. I am defiantly ready to become a full time Christian. I have committed my sins, and I have accepted that I am a sinner. I have always believed in God, always in and out of churches. I lost my way when I was around 15 years old and now I'm 24 and have just found my way back. The devil has had a hold of me for some time now, he has given me nothing but pain and misery. When I was a teenager I didn't know who it was or what it was, so I blamed God for everything. I wanted to give up on life. I went through a very depressed and hard time, until recently I realized that the only way to get out of depression is through Gods grace. Pills and counseling which feels like a job interview never worked for me. God is my counselor and friend. And I don't have to set up an appointment to talk to him. I can lean on him 24-7. I can cry to him and he is always there to listen and to understand. He is the only one that knows me on the inside.
Now I would love to reach out to people who have struggled with mental issues. Who feel lost and alone. I also want to reach out to our next generation. I see the devil itching his way through almost everything. He is in almost everything, at least the things made by man. He is corrupting people all through the world. And the next generation is who is going to pay for all of it. The sins of the earth are getting so bad, it makes me want to cry sometimes. I am defiantly afraid for my kids. The devil has a hold of so many people its scary to see. Its hard to look at the world today.
When I was going to church when I was 13, I felt like I was suppose to be a minister for the world, but for some reason God didn't open the door. Now I think its because he didn't want me to be a minster who travels the world to preach to everyone. He wants me to teach and to reach out to our children. Now that I am a mother, a feel this need to reach out to them.