Welcome to Worthy........it is good the Lord has lead you to this Ministry,where you can talk & share your emotions & feelings with others who truly care......Praise the Lord!He does love you so very much & you are not a weed! But more importantly than us listening & doing our best to encourage you & comfort you .......the best thing we can do is point you to Jesus.....
Matt,I know you are saying how much you love this lady & you think you cannot live without her and you just feel empty & incomplete without her but this is not the real problem........Unless we ourselves are whole & complete there is not a person in the world that can fill that void,that emptiness and that can only come by being one with the Lord......only Jesus can take you to that place of completeness.I see you believe in Jesus but Who is He to you?Believing in Him is just a beginning ,a good place to start but if you do not have a relationship with Him then you will always be looking to fill the void with something or someone & it just will not do..........we are not just a physical body,we are also spirit.......that spirit needs to be filled or we are just like half of a being.Jesus is the Way,the Truth & the Life.
My son once came to me in the exact condition you are in,the same circumstance too.......my advice to Him was to put God first in His life & I told Him that perhaps the Lord allowed it to happen so that He would turn to Him.......and He could have Him to Himself?Matt,my son decided that he had nothing else to lose & he would try it(he said "my way").....to make a long story short,he sought after the Lord with all his heart & Jesus put new life in his dead existence.....He asked Jesus to be Lord of His life & His Savior,his FIRST love.......................Today,the girl that got away is his wife ,the mother of his child(another on the way) .......Glory to God!
Now I am not telling you that God is a genie in a lamp & if you turn to Him He will bring your girl back......what I am telling you is that when you develop a relationship with the Lord He does fill the desires of your heart if it is in accordance with his Will,if not ,,,,He can even change those desires.......but putting Him first is the beginning of a life more abundant ,a life with peace,joy & happiness.........by the Grace of God through Faith in Jesus..........God Bless you,run to the only One that can comfort you,run into his embrace.................With love-in Christ,Kwik..