I surfed into this site from a Google search. Looks like a great place!
I found God after 2006. I had a life changing event. I than began to pray simple prayers, thanking God for the days and everything he has givin me. At this point, it still was not a strong "christian" relationship to Jesus. I loosely threw around the terms Jesus, Satan, or God. I guess you would say it was more agnostic than christian.
Around 2008 was that little mini economic collapse, or whatever that was. I then took an interest in the end of the world stuff. At this point I do not believe I was saved, because nothing changed in me during that time. I kept on sinning and lusting and I didn't seek to be more christ like. I don't think I truly believed in my heart God raised Jesus from the dead. Even though I would mention Jesus here and there.
So anywho, I kept on reading and researching the end of the world. All scenarios. I had a morbid fascination with that stuff. As some have called it, fear porn. (it really is). This rocked on until about 2012, I had began making me a small stash of bottled water, and canned food. Truthfully I bet it would not have lasted 2 months. But in my mind? It was smart. I kept on reading the alternative new sites and forums, and I slowly began to realize that I was a sinner. And sin did infact exist. And I was very guilty of it! I also realized that if Jesus wanted to punish me for sinning, I could not escape it, only he could save me. So I then started forsaking all my possessions, my hobbies, even myself. I felt like I was hitting a wall. Like nothing mattered anymore. And I did pray, and at that point I did believe God raised him from death.
I don't remember the exact day, but something changed in me. It was like somebody lifted me up from all that chaos, and all at once I somehow "knew" that stuff didn't matter, cause it wasn't the truth. Almost like someone was conforting me, letting me know it was gonna be alright. From that time I naturally didn't have the same interest. And in early 2013, for some reason I decided to real the whole bible. Normally the bible was like gibberish, but I was actually reading it like a book and it was making sense!
I have had some church in the past (not alot), but I never cared about it. I was one of those people that twiddles their thumbs through a service. I guess that would be the "works" mentality and not saved by grace. But I never read the bible before. Or studied christianity. It took me reading the bible to actually know what the spirit of truth was. Leading me to the truth. And when it came time to read the bible, it wasn't just any bible, I asked God which one they are so many. And somehow I knew the KJV was the one. But before I read it, I had no idea what the ark of the covenant really was, I thought it was a gold box on a sci fi movie. I didn't know how many God's there were, the father or the son or the holy ghost.
I am here because I seek fellowship in christ. This looks like a really good forum!
Edited by digitalinchrist, 18 July 2014 - 02:42 PM.