Hi Turtletwo,
The best answer I can give you is to take it to Poppa, and ask Him what you should do.
Poppa's way is ALWAYS the right way! Do whatever He puts into your heart. It may not please everyone, but you can't please everyone anyway.
Satan tries to get us to dwell on his thoughts instead of just trusting Poppa which will lead to confusion, frustration, etc. We have to keep demonic thoughts OUT.
Also, bind up and break the devil's power and authority over the situation.
You have my sympathy, and I'll be praying for you.
P.S. I should have read your last post, but what I've written is appropriate at any time.