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About SweetRain

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    In love with my first love, My holy savior. Blessed with a wonderful future with family and friends. And now hoping to be a missionary one day with a special someone. :)

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  1. We are not married yet but we have noticed that our spending could be a problem once we are married. So we have been trying to get use to trust each other with our money so it won't be too awkward to fork over money. Though we would like good advice on budgeting. We both have separate homes and our own set of bills. Though lately we are both hit hard financially and struggle to have enough to stretch out our paychecks long enough until the next pay period. I think a bigger issue is the recent need of supplying others needs in our families aswell. I don't mind giving money to family if they are in need, bust its really crippling my bfs ability to save. This month we both had to be late on bills because of it and both of our houses are nearly out of food. :-( we are both constantly open about the spending so I know any advice I get he'll be willing to try. I just want to find a way for us to manage our money, especially knowing that we r in a possition to have to give money every time we get paid.
  2. Paster John Beveres book "relentless" would really encourage you right now. A lot of people in my church, including myself had that attack experience all at once. Its the spirit of infermity. God is with you, he doesn't create trauma to kill us, its satans job. If satan can keep you from confidentally live and speak Gods word over yourself then he will seem to reign more over ur life than God. I remember itgot so bad for me that I was afraid to step outside, but remember that God did not give use a spirit of fear but a clear and sound mind. God wants to give you not just peace, but peace that surpasses all understanding. That means when the devil tries to kill u at all angles, you have joy in your heart because you know that this season will pass and God is in control. Speak life over your situation and dedicate it all to God. The devil is forced to leave when the holy spirit is in charge. "Greater is he that is within [you] than he is in the world" ! Praying for you!
  3. I grew up self concious about my own version of weight and body image. So I. Always avoided looking at weight and just learn to accept my size. On the otherhand, its terribly hard to know how to motivate someone you love to accept themselves and change their size because of their health risks. I feel evil when I cough him not to eat too much because I get flashbacks of how people hatefully tried to control me to think I wasn't a "normal" looking woman. We both love each other so there isn't a awkward. Hesitancy of telling the truth and opening up about things. But this area is very senitive so it have been a topic I avoid to say. I love what he looks like now cuz looks isn't everything btwn us and I'm use to complimenting his looks, but he's telling me that he's on the verge of diabetes or other risks so I feel like I'm complementing him straight into sickness.... any advice on this??? n
  4. It always been a curiousity to me. A lot of times when someone talks of doing something radical for God or raising money for the suffering, the popular thought is going to Africa. Not that I have anything against missionaries going to Africa, but its starting to become a stereotype to me... I always was confused when I started having friends from Africa (two are missionaries to America) who recently moved and had a complete revolation that not all africans in africa are living in a poor life. Infact they (my friends) were very wealthy. So why the most popular image of africa is illustrated by sad and hurting people?? Do we do this so we can make ourselves feel good that we went to another place to help the poor? If so, then why can't we help our homeless who lie in our own streets everyday as we drive in our cars to church? I'm studying to be a missionary, so I do value going abroad, but I worry that many may be going into this as a fad
  5. I have learned that while single, I need to stop looking for mr. Right and ask God to make me into mrs. Right. I pray over myself and ask God to form me to the woman he needs. I never try to say "God fix him" or "God bring the right guy in my way" instead I say "reveal to me the woman I should be so I can be the lifelong godly partner he needs." A guy I'm in courtship now I do believe he's Gods best for me. But still I ask God and pray for my boyfriend so that I. Become a humble bride one day who is a loving person for his needs.
  6. I wanted to remove my name so that I can give it away. The real prompt lately (happened yesterday) is that me and my present bf were praying together and moments b4 I had seen that bible and when I. Started praying I almost called him by my ex's name. :-s Its true, it was painful breaking up but the only reason it was because I Fully believed he cared for me. Then one day he didn't and ever since then made me feel unworthy to be with him. It took half a year and the emotions for him is gone when I don't look at stuff but the bible erased from my mind until I discovered it. My present bf knows that I'm allowing God to heal me but he trusts me on the details. Not like I'm hiding everything (the extreme like when my ex wouldn't stop calling me, I told my present bf and we prayed together about it) but small stuff I've been trying to get rid of immediately b4 they cause a wedge. I know though that God wants me to pray for my ex because of issues going on with him. This doesn't bring romantic thoughts and I feel at ease with the present. Its just how to deal with the Bible?? I'm going 2 ask God for sure....
  7. Unless, do you think there is a way to remove my name from the Bible. I actually never had the chance to use the Bible since we broke up not long after. So its brand new. I have a Bible of my own that I use so its not like I will be in great loss of Gods word.
  8. I've been doing alot of little give away spree of everything that reminded me of any past relationships to help erase any reminders. Though I stumbled on a awkward issue; before my current bf, I had talked to a guy for a while who gave me a Bible with my name ingraved in it and a Bible cover. I plan on giving the cover away, but what about the Bible? Do you think its necessary to give it away even if it has my name on it? In no way am I still connected to the past guy; and most of the time I just have it stored in other stuff in a closet or random places, but its awkward whenever I see it and know that I still have something from my past. How do you think I should handle this???
  9. SweetRain

    New 3D Printer

    I wonder if I scan myself, I could get a twin???? Then my sister and I could duplicate ourselves and then ther would be four of us!!!! Hehe I'm excited for the future now. ^.^
  10. This year is my first official attempt to cook for christmas... *scared* lol! My parents are going to be gone for the holidays so I'm going to try to cook for my siblings. Any easy recipe ideas you could give to a newbie at this?? Thanks! ^.^
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    Feeling really complicated

    There are womens groups at my church its just taking me forever to go... its wierd because I can't really pin point whats making me so sluggish. I know most of it is because I don't have friends I could spend my days off work with but I dont see why it would bother me that bad.
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    Feeling really complicated

    I agree on the points made here, especially of both making sure to have self control as well as good alone time. I kind of went through a phase where I had to be socially isolated so my alone time outside of church was more of a focus I needed to devote to God. But in the reverse, when i was surrounded with friends and family who took up most of my attention, going to church was important so that I wouldnt lose the importance of setting aside time for God amongst my busy schedule. My concern within the past few months actually ran deeper than just my lack of wanting to go to church. Its like my life went numb and I didnt realize how bad it got until it was drawn to my attention. I had gone through a brief bad start when i moved out on my own which kind of crippled my confidence. I didn't know anyone out here when i moved so I relied on God alot on company and sanity when things got rough. but sometimes when I notice that I can't really change my situation, I lost the urge to take care of myself or do much of anything. Like for example, my biggest struggle I have is affording stuff like food. it would be murder everytime i had to go grocery shopping because I wouldnt have enough to last for a few days, not alone a week. Then on top of that, my appartment has bad bug problem so i would have to spend on making sure i don't get too much of them. I felt embarassed whenever I thought about wanting friends because i feared that htey would come over one day and see my appartment and think bad of me. I work alot and come home super tired so I already dont have a desire to fix something to eat for myself so sometimes I don't eat at all, my appartment is never clean because all i want to do is sleep. And then I wonder why I'm always tired at work. I have a church that I go to but I haven't connected to any group because I'm too tired to go and I don't really have the drive to as I use too. So for months I would work and sleep. The only time I really ate was on my break at work and probably did small shopping on my off day. The only reason why I found out how far I was getting in neglecting myself was because my bf warned me about it when he realized how thin I was compared to a pic of me several weeks before all this. This past week is the best improvement I have made in a long time. Though its awkward trying to force myself to do everything, I do take better care of myself. My biggest struggle I have right now is getting involved in my church, or anything beyond just sitting at home. Theres alot of ways for me to not be such a loner but everytime its time for church i just dont go. I had this problem before because I would just get tired of going to church or events by myself, and normally I could just force myself to get over it and move on. but its a miracle to motivate myself to go unless I can go but not have to talk to anyone while im there.
  13. SweetRain

    Feeling really complicated

    I don't have much time right now (library computer) i'll post more later, but in brief: I was wondering if its normal to have periods when your not really motivated to go to church anymore. not saying I lost my faith in God or anything. Actually its kinda the opposite. I just find myself kind of just not fully myself when I go. I spend more time talking to God than really listening to what is being said at church. Or I feel more interested in staying home and just waiting for him to talk to me than really going. Its kinda like i'm wanting specific stuff to talk to God and so I really just daydream in church. So I kinda skip...
  14. SweetRain

    100 Christians Killed In Nigeria Violence

    I pray that God will protect those in Nigeria and all around the world who face tragedies such as this.
  15. Jesus loves you and wants you to know that you are precious to Him! God will never leave you nor forsake you, and and and and and and yah! < === thats God giving you a hug. have a blessed day! ^.^