NewToChrist

Yes I have been for a while now.

Ok so here's where I'm at. Most of you already know what I've been through, some more than others. But, recently my family has decided to desert me. After a miscarriage and losing the man I thought I loved who I'd been with for a long while and wanted to marry...he passed away. Now my family is saying my job isn't good enough. That I need to go to Job Corps and get out, or they will "give me a one way ride to the mission". Yes, I know they can't "force" my to go to Job Corps but I feel I am being strong armed into having no other option. They aren't giving me any time to save $ to get my own place just that every job I've had isn't good enough. THEY FORCED ME TO QUIT MY LAST JOB, after giving them nearly 80% of ALL the $ earned during it, AND letting them set up T.V services in MY name that THEY let go to collections three times!. Yet, this job (secretary for a senior living center $9.33/hr 35hrs a week) still isn't good enough. At least it's something! Should I stand my ground and hope they don't kick me out or give in to the controlling manipulative behavior and go to Job Corps which I'll never be happy with, then sue them or every penny that went to collections?....I see no guidance from the Lord on this I feel like I'm all alone contemplating the worst is how bad this is for me right now. My parents ultimatum is quit my apparently "dead end" job and go to Job Corps or "get out"...

thank you

Exodus 14:14 The Lord will fight for you, you need only to be still. NLT

other one, I know what you mean believe me. I posted this for my own healing I did not mean for it to cause discomfort to you or anyone else. god bless

thanks guys. I like to tell a story with my writing. advise from my therapist, show where I was, and where I am going now. I'll post more later. But please pray for me as I am having some financial burdens dropped upon me...my depression is rearing back to get me through the anxiety of these things...ugh

Thank you. sorry i have been away for a while... I've lost 5 pounds! yippie! I got myself a hotel lastnight to be away from my family... parents getting a divorce so it was very..loud lastnight... my brother was crying outside and they didn't even care he had the guts to scream at them "stop fighting i hate it when you guys fight", my dad looked at him in a fit of anger and said " shut the **** up go outside and ******* go do something" so he did, i yelled i was getting a hotel and they didn't even blink! -.-

Thanks nebula, I lost 2 pounds this week so thats good. My issue is I used to struggle with Bulimia and Anorexic tendencies and my friend adam knows this so he is easing me into a healthier life but it is so hard to not binge when i feel bad, then purge when the food makes me feel worse... I am still learning though and take each grain of advise to heart and will put into action. thank you for the prayers.

I have been through some similar issues. being the only christian in my family. it can be hard feeling that way, as for your sister, i've been in her shoes, the whole running away part. she will come to her senses! I will be praying for you!

lil sis got rehomed to a very nice couple today so sweet they are and have a much bigger place for her so im sure she will be happy there. and i finished my first full days work yaay.

oh cool. didnt think of that! thanks!

How can I post pictures from my computer to my posts? (I took a pic of some things I made and would like to show you all) I copy paste and it doesn't work. I click the image button and it says url, how do i do that?

So 1- me and josh arent together anymore, long story but I had to tell my police friend adam on him as josh threatened someones life... mostly from his anti depressants i think but he needs some emotional help...pray for him 2- i cant lose weight my friend adam is helping me but its hard, the only thing that used to work for me is crash diets if you know what i mean...and i dont want to do that again! im so confused as to what to do. ive been trying to lose weight for months! im just so hurt...

Hey guys thanks for all the advise but the lil boy passed away sadly on the 24th, i hadnt been able to update this post til now, i did take him to the vet i was sick of watching him as he get worse.. the morning of the 23rd he wouldnt eat no matter how hard i tried, i did get KMR and he wouldnt take it not even from an eyedropper.. so i walked him in his box down to the vet and told them his symptoms that i didnt have the money but he needed help now! thankfully they were nice enough to take him in and after 2 hours of praying and waiting he passed away the vet said he was so cold his temp wouldnt even read. which is wierd cause id kept him on a small heating pad wrapped in a blanket, they also said he was really anemic like i had thought. said i had done good by trying to get fleas off him and the KMR but sometimes kittens just cant regulate their temp, along with being anemic there was nothing i could have done. But his sister and mom are very healthy and the lil girl is being rehomed tomorrow yay

thank you all. i just got word from shawn that alana has fully miscarried tonight and is sleeping now. now it is just a matter of the lord bringing them together to work through this for their young son noah.. he is only 6 months i think