TexasKitty

I did, no ones talking.

I need christian friends to chat with. Am really struggling. Anyone on MSN?

Thanks to all who have taken the time to reply to me. I appreciate you. I will be working to implement many of the suggestions here. Thanks again, Angie

I am trying to get my spiritual life back together after a long time of just feeling numb. I am on disability so I'm home all day. I find myself at a loss, though I have devotional books and bible studys on hand. Any suggestions. Angie

I look forward to His return as a release from this life.

You are not alone. I suffer from mental illness and though I look to earthly docs, the ultimate healing will be going home to be with Jesus.

Sometimes I wonder this about my own life.

I agree we have to be so careful with symbols lest we turn them into idols. God definitely shows his opinions on man-made symbols and idols.

I can relate to the struggle with depression. I hope you have found a new church by now? It's a problem among Christians, believing that being a Christian means you won't have any mental problems. That's a lie. We can have mental problems the same way our bodies can be ill and injured. I never took medicine, though, because I was afraid of the side-affects. The greatest breakthrough for me, so far, was when I was able to thank the Lord - and mean it - for the pain in my life. It was hard to do that, but the Holy Spirit revealed to me how good had come from my having walked through such pain (made me a better person, drew me closer to Him). Only then could I thank Him for that. It was still hard to speak it, though. But when I did, I literally felt an emotional break taking place, like heavy chains being broken off. I still have more areas that need to be dealt with, but that I believe was the strongman. I ask the Lord bring healing to your heart as well. I have visited several churches. Its take me years to have the courage to do this. I think I have found the right one although, my anxiety makes it hard to attend. But I plan to keep going back. Its been a year this time since I've tried to go to church. I first attended on Easter and cried through the worship. It was a good release. Like coming home.

What was your illness? Bipolar Disorder and PTSD

I do and struggle with it. The people at my old church didn't understand and were frustrated with me. I was a leader at one point but my illness got in the way of my attendance. I have attempted suicide. I am depressed. I have and continue to seek earthly medicine but am also trying to get my spiritual life straightened out. Can anyone relate.