thank you everyone for your thoughts, suggestions and prayers. I wasn't proud of what i did, and I totally admitted to her that I was wrong, and confessed to an emotional online affair. It was hurtful but what she needed to hear. She has had a few rough days but has been incredibly gracious to me. I think she knows my road to redemption will be a slow one and long, and she is giving me the grace I need to earn back her trust.