I know how you feel. I felt the same, until rather recently. Have you ever wondered why something has happened (either to you, or perhaps around you)? Let's take driving, for example. Ever come up to a stop light that seemed to turn red quicker than it should? Did God just save you from getting into an accident? Did God use you to help someone else out in that moment? Many times, I have caught traffic light after traffice light, and had slow cars pull out in front of me. I used to get upset, but I have come to thank God for these moments, and I'll say, "OK God, I get it. I'm supposed to be in this vehicle a little longer."
I have come to believe that there are no coincidences in life, so I asked God to open my eyes to the 'coincidental' things that happen. I kid you not, just this morning I caught a light while everyone else seemed to get through it, then I got behind someone travelling 10MPH under the speed limit. I smiled and said, "I don't know why God, but You can see the big picture, and I am thankful for being a part of your plan". Just as I arrived, my favorite Christian song came on the radio. I don't hear it very often at all, so I sat in my car until it was over. Had I not caught that light or had I passed the slow vehicle, I would have missed the song.
My point is, God is all around us every day. Sometimes it won't be obvious. Sometimes it will seem as if He's not there at all, He has not forsaken you and He will never leave you.