Thank you all for your responses! Kwik, there are many reasons why I am thinking of this step in life. I don't want to really get into it because I don't want it to sound like I am knocking churches, so I will just say that every day I see more and more churches turning worldly. Catholic, Baptist... does not matter. They preform gay marriages and tell people what they want to hear, not what they need to hear. In my small city there is one huge church and a couple small ones. The pastor of the huge church has two cars and a yacht that he goes sailing in each week. To me that is not right, that is not living humble. That is standing infront of people one day a week and telling them God loves them and has forgiven all their sins, then having a blast the rest of the week. Not every church is like this, but more and more are becoming worldly. But aside from my personal reasons like those few examples, I think God is calling me to be a pastor and has been for a long time because I can feel it. It feels like the Holy Spirit is trying to guide me in that path. Kind of like if you are about to do something wrong and you get that feeling it is wrong... like if you are at the store and the teller gives you change back for a $20 when you only gave her a $5. You could really use the money, but you have that feeling telling you not to walk away. Or if you are in the grocery store line and the person infront of you is short $ for their baby diapers. You have no extra money but you get that feeling asking you if you really need that bag of doritos? Ok, maybe those are not great examples haha, but it's the feeling we all have from the Holy Spirit to guide us in every day life, big choices and small choices. There is one big reason why I question it... I am 40 and I do not have my highscool diploma. I am not dumb, but I am not "school smart". My credit is toast, I made a lot of wrong choices in life because they are choices I made without handing my life to God and accepting his guidance. I am at the point now of knowing I should have listened, and thinking I need to start listening. But it is hard... most people's idea of a pastor is a well educated man who has always had his life together, that is not me.
