stevec1993

Thank you so much for the advice and help, I’ll definitely take it on board, thanks again .

You have helped a lot with what you said, thank you and thanks to everyone else as well for the good advice!

I think I’ve committed the unforgivable sin. I’ve sinned wilfully lots of times with lust thinking I could just repent straight after but now I think I’ve gone too far as I can’t feel any remorse for sin, my desire for God has gone, my fear of hell has gone and the gospel doesn’t feel like reality anymore, it’s almost like I don’t care at all. I know this is a very dangerous situation to be in, please pray I’ll get my desire for God back and hate my sin.

I'm really worried I'm reprobate. I was brought up in a Christian home and asked Jesus to save me when I was five cos I realised I was a hell deserving sinner. I've asked him to save me loads of times over my life. I always struggled with sin though and sometimes I would do it wilfully thinking it's ok God will forgive me. Then a couple of years ago I was struggling with a lot of doubts about the faith and I kept falling into sin, one day I thought 'wouldn't it be great if it all didn't exist then I could sin as much as I want' and thought about certain sins, thinking 'how's that bad'? Basically excusing them. That night I did my bible readings and read some hard to understand passages in Leviticus and thought how could that be true?? And with that I rejected all I had believed. Then not long after about a week or so I read that people that stop believing are doomed to hell so this scared me loads and so I tried to start believing again but I couldn't, this carried on for a while. Then I became relaxed about the situation and thought God would bring me back in time. But then I fell headlong into sin usually excusing it or doing it in direct defiance to God. Thinking terrible thoughts like 'It's worth going to hell for sin' 'Gods sending me to hell might as well do what I want' 'humans are great. God won't be able to send them to hell' Then I realised how unsatisfied I was, especially with sin, it just seemed to loose its appeal. Then I realised that the only satisfaction is in Jesus and I couldn't be happy until i was sure I was going to heaven instead of trying to ignore it. And then I got all worried again. I then read those passages on reprobates and thought 'oh no that's me!' Because I chose sin over God and I realised my conscience seemed to have disappeared, I was no longer convicted of sin. I realised ever since I stopped I believing that my mind had changed. My ambitions had gone, love for my friends and family had gone, I'd turned very proud and selfish. People say there is no hope for people like me, I'm trying to repent and believe on Jesus but faith and conviction won't come. It's like my heart is hard to the gospel. Please please is there any hope for people like me?? I'm in torment every day. I regret so bad the stupid decisions I made over these last couple of years, I feel sick and terrible. I cry out to God for help but nothing happens!

Thanks to all of you who have replied

Thanks Ted that is a real encouragement!!

Yes I did numerous times but first when I was 5 years old and not too long ago I got down on my knees and offered God my life to do with as he wished and pledged to know Him better every day. Not longer after this is when all the trouble started

Sorry I better post 5 times then

Hi I'm 21 years old. I first asked Jesus into my heart and asked for forgiveness when I was 5 years old, iv repeated this numerous times during my life usually after a challenging sermon or after committing a great sin. My faith has never been really strong but I'd always pray God would make it stronger and that he'd make me a better Christian which was/is my desire. But two years ago after lots of doubts about my faith and God one night while led in bed I came to the conclusion that God didn't exist, the bible was made up and there was no such thing as sin. Then a few days later I read that Christians that stopped believing were destined for hell. This scared me a lot!! So I started reading a lot of apologetics hoping to get my faith back but it didn't work, then on the Internet I read that true Christians never stopped believing this again made me panick even more. So ever since then iv been trying to get my faith back. My biggest fear is that iv never been a true Christian and that iv had my chance to become a Christian but I missed it and kept on sinning so the Holy Spirit has given up on me, because I don't feel convicted of sin anymore. So am I without hope? Am I condemmed to hell? Is there anyone who's also rejected their faith like me and come back to believe? Or know of anyone that has please? It would be a great encouragement of someone has.