The walls vary with each of us I guess, depending on our individuality in Christ. Mine has come late in life, surprisingly. It may be a dry season, or simply my own failure to listen as ya'll have suggested ( which I am truly grateful for the input ).
For those who asked for something more specific, it seems that my " growth " is stunted. I rejoice in where I am, and will wait on the LORD, but feel that I have been exactly where I am for quite some time. I figure it's my own fault and will pray about it.
Again, thank you all for the concern and responses. That alone has given me inspiration to seek what I am lacking.