Scraplover27

Exactly. I never said I had romantic feelings for him. I said I was attached to him, and felt like I wanted to be closer. Yet two different people assumed I was talking about being attracted to him. This was an erroneous inference. I look at him like a father figure.

I JUST posted that I'm not experiencing romantic feelings for my psychologist. He is like a father figure to me. I do worry that because I respect him so much, I am following his belief system to feel closer to him as a father figure. I have no desire to sleep with him. I'm happily married for 20 years.

Thanks for the replies. To be clear, I'm not looking for a relationship with my psychologist. He is wise, kind, and a smart man. I look up to him very much, as almost a father figure. I would never put him in a position to lose his license, and am not trying to seduce him. Not sure how this was inferred... maybe because I mentioned I have looked for father figures in people I've dated in the past. Anyway, I only worry that because I so look up to him, that this is why I am wanting to find God... because I respect this doctor and I know God is important in his life. Does this make sense? To answer another question, I was baptized and confirmed years ago as a teenager. I'm in my 40's now, married to the same man for 20 years, with two children. I have never "felt" God, and wonder if it's due to me shutting down emotionally after a difficult childhood that saw violence, abuse and physical and emotional abandonment. I want to feel God in my life. I'm searching for meaning. It's hard to just wake up one day and suddenly have faith... my gradual and growing therapeutic relationship with my very nurturing but well-boundaried psychologist has made me feel open to exploring Christianity again. Incidentally, he emailed me last night and said he would pray for me, for greater self-acceptance and inner harmony etc. The fact that he would do this for me feels incredibly moving. I am going to just go with this slowly for the time being. I'm a cautious person... I will try to pray for help in feeling God in my heart.

am I too damaged to know God? I have an insecure attachment style and push/pull in relationships. Nothing feels steady for me.

Hi, I'm new here. I am floundering a bit (a lot). I have seen a psychologist for almost a year, and feel very attached to him. I don't have a strong father figure in my life, and so I have tended to look for father figures... as lovers or mentors or other connection types. He is 20 years older than me, and a Christian. I have felt an urge to develop a relationship with God for a long time, and voiced this to my psychologist recently. Today at our session we talked about God. It was honestly the best session we have had. He is so kind, and I wonder if part of why I want an attachment to God is so I can feel closer to my psychologist. I sent him an email after session asking if he ever prays for patients. I'm a sort of troubled woman with a lot of residual pain from childhood issues. I was diagnosed with c-PTSD and an attachment disorder. I've had trouble in the past with not having a strong sense of self, and being chameleon like in relationships. Is that what is happening here? If my psychologist were a devout Buddhist would I be heading down that path? Is it moot, and should I just "go with it" since having a relationship with God can't hurt? I'm incredibly anxious that he hasn't answered my email and worry that he thinks I'm strange for asking him that question. I already overstep my bounds by emailing too much, though he tells me not to worry about it. I think he cares about me, but the nagging voice in the back of my mind tells me he's just doing his job. Any thoughts?