I am not in an ideal situation. Currently, I live with my boyfriend and we have a baby together, he is three months old. Since having our son I have felt strong conviction to turn my life to Christ and be a Biblical example of a mother and raise my child to know and love Christ. Unfortunately, my boyfriend doesn't see eye to eye. Because of my strong conviction that we should not live together unmarried and that I want to be more involved in a Christian community, and follow Christ completely, we have talked about splitting up. However, if we did I would have no where to go and I would have nothing. I am a stay at home mother, my bf does all of the working and so we only have one vehicle as we only saw the need for one because the plan was always for me to be a sahm. The vehicle is registered in his name. I also cannot get a job and save up to move out of the house because his work hours are crazy and change every week and I haven't been able to find a job that would work with his changing schedule so I could have the car when he wasn't etc. Also, around here there are no open spots for infant daycare until next year. So even if I could find that miracle job, I'd have no one to watch my child. I do have my step mother that has agreed in the past that she would watch the baby, but only 2-3 days out of the week. The only real option I have came up with is to stay with her, but she lives an hour a way and is pretty manipulative and has lied, lied, and lied again to my face and I don't think I could manage to do that. On top of that, she would not help with transportation so I still wouldn't have a viable way back and forth to work if I did stay with her. she also lives out in the middle of no where, so if I did stay there I would not even be able to walk back and forth to work. (I don't blame her for having boundaries with what she will and will not do for me, she's grown and done raising kids and shouldn't have to drive anyone around or help raise another one at this point) I don't have any other family that is capable of taking me in at this point. My dad lives states away, he has to live separate from my step mother for work. and my mother is not in the picture. My grandparents live somewhat further away, about an hour and a half and I can't put all of this stress of having a baby in their house on them at their age, that'd be pretty unfair of me. This is my situation that I have put myself into and nobody should have to take it upon themselves to help me out. I don't have access to any money but my boyfriends and he is not willing to help me leave, he is actually quite upset that I have taken this route. I would like to see myself living with my son in our own apartment, being an active member of a church community, having a steady job, and being able to provide for him on my own so that I could honor God and not live with someone unmarried. (my bf also refuses to get married at this point) I also see myself in the future getting a degree in Biblical studies and hopefully working for a ministry doing something like counseling or youth ministry. Does anyone have any advice for my situation or any resources to help me obtain this goal? If nothing else, prayers are totally accepted!
