Sorry to hear what you are saying about your husband, be happy your son choose the best Father in the world Christ Jesus, give thanks with a great full heart, it is hard when someone going through trials, like you are going through to tell them in every thing give thanks, this is what the scripture says only who practice this knows it works, be thankful your husband have not give you any sickness give thanks from being free from that, if you give him another child is there any surety he will not treat you worst sister? in Galatians says a believer have to have the characteristics of Christ which is the fruit of the spirit, so far we have not see your husband displaying any good fruit only fruit of the flesh, we have not heard him showing any love, if he was then the rest would of be evident which is joy, peace, forbearance, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control, sister you cannot desire darkness more than light and your husband demonstrates darkness, John 2-9 says "Whoever says he is in the light and hate his brother is still in darkness, when some husbands behaves like this some wives spend all their time on the man and not God making him an idol because they ponder on the man more than God, sister the advice others have given for you to get advice from a Good Pastor PLEASE TAKE IT, I know, others and I will be waiting to hear your testimony, who knows, your son serving God may lead his father to Christ, blessing sister keep your eyes on Christ, I am not only saying what I am saying to you to sound Good, I was married for 22 yrs and recently had to walk away from my marriage, but my son is bitter your son is better he Has the best Dad in the world. Be strong and I will have my prayer group keep you in prayer sis, you also pray for other sisters that God will make a way for them, you are the right one to pray for them.