Angelz

First off I never said I don't love my husband, I do love him, dearly. It's just not a type of love a wife should have for her husband. I guess that love is not important in a Christian marriage. My husband feels I am mentally unstable because I want a divorce, his words. He asked our therapist to prescribe some type of medication to "fix me"as he put it. She refused. I would take medication if it would help our marriage . During our marriage I was discouraged from working, getting an education and having my own interests and hobbies. I felt trapped. I have prayed for our marriage, for years I prayed. We have been to Christian marriage counselling. I know I'm not a perfect wife but I tried to be a good one.

I've been married 26 years, unhappy for most but comfortable. I don't love him like a wife should love her husband, not sure I ever did. The thought of staying breaks my heart. I cry all the time. He says I'm selfish and I could choose to be in love with him. My question is, how do I force my heart to feel something is doesn't?