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  1. Sailingsoul
    I wonder why people see mental illness as being demonnposessed and not physical. Ailments.. If you have a cold are you. Possessed? No. all I can see is this going down hill and the mentally ill. Being treated as less then human...
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    what youre saying isnt true..your advice just isn't helpful.
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    That's true, I found my friends when I wasn't looking.
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    This whole post shows you really dont care. No need to post any further.
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    I totally agree, its easy to tell the people what to do. I hope the op is leading the way.
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    Im defInetely Fighting thsse Felings ... I just want to beable To focus On impro Ving My life... Not pininhG Fir Someone else.
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    Ans I didnt dodge your question I gave you an honest answer. If being alive means success what do we tell dying children in third world countries? I'm being honest.
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    no you dont love me, im honestly pouring out my heart and youre giving " snap out of it" answers. If your were going to do that a simple.. Idk or tl;dr would have sufficed. You are not obligated or force to reply do what you want.
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    its hard when you can't change what isnt working. I'm 25.. Got kicked out of school ( my grades were ok) .... School was working and is my only way to a better life ..on this plane anyway.. But I couldn't attend because I had to pay out 900$ to continue my fall session.. I didnt have the money. The only jobs I get are fast food jobs ( I've applies to different kinds.. In the hospital, as a dishwasher ..ect..but id never get them.. My mom even works in the hospital..and she couldn't get me on. Even a job at dollar tree a manager said she'd get me on and disnt call me back) so these things aren't a quick fix. I have to keep going to school and keep working. No way around that.
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    also I don't think I'm a success just because I'm still alive while some child in Syria perished...it just means my living circumstances and conditions were better. Being a success is doing something positive with your life..which is what I'm trying to do.
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    I'm not waiting for success to fall out of nowhere.. I've tried and failed again and again...it's hard to keep moral up when you just keep losing...yet I try again.
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    I answered your question. ...but how is it giving up if I ask for the desire be removed? I cant know for certain ill be married, so its best I'm not distracted by these feelings... So it wont drive me crazy...if I'm not gonna be married, theres no purpose for these feelings and desires.
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    what do you mean a confidence thing? Anyway to answer your question.. My relationship with myself is okay.. Its hard to treat myself better when I cant seem to do much right and feel like a failure. My thoughts are kinda negative....its hard to change..ive tried..i just feel ill feel better about myself when I acheive something. I've been trying but have had major setbacks more than the average person which leads me to believe im kind of a failure.. I'm trying to Chan that thinking too.
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    and youre by passing mine. You never told me how to remove such desires as i do have alot to work on and as I am in not ready to be married ....
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    I saw it in your post, die u edit it ? Anyway, that first bit saying its centered on me implies selfishness..also.. I asked how can thr desire be removed..you didnt really tell me how to remove the desire
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    also, i do have friends( though i only text them) i make sure they feel loved and theyve told me they appreciate me.
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    how is it selfish to love another person?
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    This is tooooooo good. I totally agree with everything you said. This is such a good topic, I feel like I'm having church online this is really speaking to me
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    wow that rcc was crazy... Its crazy people can be so distant. But I'm happy you found people who accepted you with open arms... I'm gonna find a good church like you did.
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    Oh man, I totally agree! Even with what you said about the movie... Its like people want to be a Christian but no one wants to be a real Christian. I feel people just want a fluffy, saccharin, feel good Sunday sermon get together... When I was at church I tried hard to make friends too but... Its like they were friends with each other and I couldn't get in. And about the movie, I didnt like that either, I dont understand why he couldn't open up his house to her... Its like people want to be Christians but don't want to go all the way. I'm not perfect by a long shot... But I feel I'm good at loving broken people..people like me.
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    I have the urge and desire to be married ..in the same way I have the urge and desire to have friends...but... I feel I'm destined to be alone. I dont know how to explain it but I feel ill be alone. I just dont understand why id have the desire to be married and share myself with someone...as well as have the desire to have friends when I dont get the opportunity to have any. ( I've tried) one interesting thing that was said, was that you have no idea if those desires ( for friends and husband ) is from God... However, I feel not having these desires will make me less then human...kind of robotic. Its human to feel.. And it would turn me into a lone hermit. His word says he didnt call us to be alone...but that's where I'm headed to... I just wonder if maybe that's his will for me ...to just be by myself. I dont know ( and foe those who ask, yes I've volunteered at pantries and things like that... I'm gonna try and get back into it) what do you guys think?
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    describes me pretty well
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    you need to be baptized in the holy spirit... You need his power to cope with every day life.... trust me I somewhat understand what youre going through... I went for deliverance on my anxiety and it didnt go anywhere ..it only got worse.... And I was blamed for not being fully delivered.. it sucks ..so I understand you I do. I also feel like I'm cursed as well, one lady told me in a grocery store that I was chosen..but things will get worse...so far in I'm losing my hair to alopecia, got kicked out of school and my dad was kicked out.. I've prayed about all these issues and idk... I really have nothing to say because I feel the way you do. I've been baptized by water and spirit and I'm still living a wretched life. Not to be a downer, but people say god promises this and that...but when I tell them what I just stated above ..people are quick to say, god doesn't promise everyone an easy life..?? What??? Am I missing something... Like is his promises real or not?. sorry , I dont mean to offend anyone at all.. But.i feel I've had more than my fair share of bad experiences.. Especially to be a believer... Even my faith seems to be ebbing away..which I'm trying hard to save..but it seems futile..because the church hurt I've went through is just still there ..though I asked god to remove the anger... but his word says the who endure to the end shall be saved... So.. I'm going to hold on as much as I can because at this point I want rest for my soul. honestly and truly , Sailing
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    Thank you so much...... This helped alot... I need to write down phrases that stand out..its hard to see what's me and what's god ( thought wise)
  25. Sailingsoul
    youre so right..... Thank you so much for your input.
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