Gemma_Maebure

Before I begin, I think it's safe to say that the title kinda gives away what going on here, but if jot then i'll explain: I'll be honest, I've fallen away from God for a while now and just recently started to try and find my way back (not by any own strength of course). So, I'm at work (October 27, 2016) and while I'm trying to listen to contemporary Christian music without cringing, I get this overwhelming feeling. It isn't a bad feeling. It's more peaceful and I can't exactly describe it at all, and the peace is so strong that I go into what I like to call "Zen mode" where I lose traction of time because I'm so calm and focused on my current activity. This rarely happens, might I add. So while I'm sitting here wondering what's going on, I start questioning my "gift". I was told years ago by THREE DIFFERENT PEOPLE that I'm a prophet, but up to this day I never saw how or when it would happen. I wondered why none of the other prophets bothered to reach me, and this random thought almost literally echoed in my thought process: "The gift of prophecy can'tbe taught by human means, but by impartation from Spirit to spirit." I'm not sure if hat was Who I think it was, and I'm not sure why I was led to capitalize the "S" in the first "spirit", but I feel like God is tugging at me...not hard but gently. I'm afraid though and I don't know what to do because the last time I got all hype about God, something happened to my (heart-wise and I don't know what) and I started drifting away and soon enough, I completely fell away. Not in a life of utter darkness and doom, but I just went about my life not thinking of Him. Like I said, He's tugging at me and I don't know what to do. I'm honestly scared...