PreacherM@n

i think im going to hell, and there is nothing i can do. i think about Christianity and it triggers my schizoaffective disorder. i take one second to focus on God, on that level, and my brain just breaks down.

i have always been attracted to men and women, and ive been denying it without seeking help since forever. its not something i want to hold on to.. it can go.. why doesnt it.. i dont want to be AN animal

Jesus died for me, and I know this. This doesn't stop me from pornography, gambling, or smoking pot. I even some times defend the LGBT community. I must not be saved, as I'm far away from the true ways of living for Christ. I know God is going to bring down his wrath on me on judgment day, yet that doesn't change me. I don't even know if I've been baptised. If you're wondering where my moniker "preacherman" comes from, I just want to talk about Christ. I want to know why I can't move. I have a serious mental disease and it makes me ignorant to truth. I know I'm to blame, so I shouldn't blame my disease. Any idea why I can't just be grateful and show respect? Do I want to go to hell?

Why am I not ever healed? I feel this lousy feeling that God doesn't want me, because I can't even overcome this illness ever. It eats at my ability to function, to get married, etc.. do i just qualify as a semi-Christian, since I must not understand faith properly?

assisted suicide.. marijuana legalization.. more abortion rights and access.. calling LGBT stuff the root of Canada.. letting in every muslim, but never taking in Christians.. he calls himself Christian for political reasons, not because he actually believes. any Canadians here with any errors to point out about justin trudeau? i think our country is doomed to vote him in again and again, until the day we don't have Canada to call home. everyone is in love with this carbon taxing schmuck that votes for the younger generation.

just ignore this thread.. it came off as really confusing. close it, mods, please. thanks!

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to sum things up: i am against gay marriage and the LGBT agenda.. i just wanted to point out that north america is godless politics at this point and gay marriage was easy to see coming. i just tried talking about it differently and came off pro lgbt. lol. i understand why i'm against lgbt marriage and that stuff. just wanted some different views, not always preaching.

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i understand.. but this was as predictable to see coming under a godless democracy as anything else. i kind of see where pro gay Christians are coming from with the taxes and human rights stuff.. even if they're pretending.. they're still paying taxes. this had to happen. i guess i know i'm against gay marriage.. i just wanted a different discussion.

nevermind. tried discussing this from a different vantage point and came off just looking like i don't see God in north america(i don't)