Jayneseek2

I did accept Jesus in my heart. I have drifted away and come back to renew at times. I never could see just how alone I was and walking darkness and allowing that to spread to others. Don't know how I could have been so blind to it and again cant understand how I was not able to see. Thank you for your post, going to review them again and ask for direction.

angels4u Thought I was, however have been reading how when you fall away some believe you cannot come back. I have fallen so far away for such a long time, that I am now seeing the parable Jesus spoke of in Matthew. Where I could not see or hear what was being said or even what I was really doing. Attempting to make it thru each day, then praying I would see and do better the next, making the same mistakes. Not being aware as my life was always in such a whirlwind and disaster that I was spreading that to all around me. Somehow my heart was "hardened" (like a Tree Grows In Brooklyn,) and I could not see myself and what I was doing or what was real. Have just been thinking as I pray I still keep slipping. Whatever time I have left, I would like for it to better, to at least try to live our beliefs and not hurt anyone else. Have tried to go back and make amends, apologize to family and I think their heart is hardened to me now, and probably righteously so.

Hoping some will be able to share their thoughts, convictions on this passage. The unpardonable sin of blasphemy against the Holy Spirit. After studying have found conflicting thoughts and information. Some of the latest readings have suggested that it is being in the state of unbelief, not asking for forgiveness or being repentant. Matthew 12:31-32King James Version (KJV) 31 Wherefore I say unto you, All manner of sin and blasphemy shall be forgiven unto men: but the blasphemy against the Holy Ghost shall not be forgiven unto men. 32 And whosoever speaketh a word against the Son of man, it shall be forgiven him: but whosoever speaketh against the Holy Ghost, it shall not be forgiven him, neither in this world, neither in the world to come. will add that I have been very lost and trying to make it back to Christ. Even with contemplation, am having difficulty even understanding myself how far down I had have gone, and not being aware of it. am trying to make it back and at the least do my best to not harm anyone else along my path.