I not a Christian but I have a question that is been bothering me. I hope someone can give me some answer. I want to ask about the unpardonable sin mention in the bible. In Mark 3:28-30. it mentions a sin that god will not forgive, I have read some information regarding this and mostly are saying that this sin is a continuous rejection of the holy spirit. The one who done it will have no guilt and not interested and will never ask god for forgiveness. This is what worried me because I don't feel any conviction of sin. Does it mean I had already committed it?
I have come to known/heard about Jesus since I was quite young but I did choose not accept him. Is like I kept just saying no to Him and had continued on in the same sinful ways that I had been living in. When I sin, most of the time I feel no guilt afterwards and have no regrets later about it.
I read from the bible there will come a time when a person had resist the holy spirit so much he stops convicting him of sin and left the person to result in he will never be saved. One heart will get more and more harden until his heart had permanently hardened against god. You try to repent and you can't repent. You can't be genuinely sorry for your sin or turn away from it.
Judas and Esau are the examples of this. In Hebrews 12:17. He sought repentance with tears but couldn't find it. Am I like them? Have tried to feel guilt but all that I get is feeling that I can't feel it. Do you think I'm beyond forgiveness? Did I commit the unforgivable sin?
