I've been fasting, praying, and seeking God for 6 years and I still cant walk in love... I don't want to live if I can't overcome the world and I just can't do it. I haven't held a job longer than a few months ever... I'm homeless, broke, depressed and I just can't heal and i don't know why. I'm not trying to throw a pity party but im at my witts end. I just don't know what to do, I can't repent and I cant change into a different person... I am not gaining any power over sin or the enemy despite trying so hard, if I can't walk in God's love I don't even want to live. I keep hurting people and I keep trying over and over and over to stop and to change but it just won't happen. I am crying out in my heart ''GOD PLEASE, PLEASE, PLEASE, PLEASE CHANGE ME'' but nothing is happening. I feel like i have no reason to live, i don't know what to do....