Cny195

Hello, i was raised a catholic but for the past 10 years since i was 12 i have been an atheist. Personally i wish that I believed in god because that would make my purpose much clearer and my life much easier. I've realised, however, that you can't choose what you believe in, and even though i want to believe in god, i can't. I was just wondering if anyone could offer any insight, or perhaps explain why you believe in god, Thank you