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About Hmh123

  • Birthday 10/25/1993

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    Brooklyn, NY
  1. Hi, I am Angie!

    Welcome Angelica! What’s your testimony? How did you come to the Christian faith?
  2. Prayers for a safe delivery for wife

    Praise God! Praying❤️
  3. Ministry

    Praying before bed❤️
  4. God will do anything to help people.

    Wow so beautiful. I really loved reading this testimony. It gave me hope.
  5. Raven's testimony

    Wow I really appreciated this testimony. I ran away from the home that adopted me at 18 after they kicked me out so I guess I didn’t really run away. Thanks again❤️
  6. "The Stain" (a tale from NYC's Little Italy)

    Cool story! I really loved it and it’s funny because I myself was adopted. I’m an Italian woman with the original name of Rizzo adopted into a white family (non Italian). My name here is Hmh for Heather Madeline Heron which is the legal name I was adopted into. I found my family through dna ancestry too! And I also live in sheepshead bay right next to Coney Island! I love love love to go to Coney Island in the summer! Before I was adopted at the age of 4, my family (the Rizzo’s) brought me to Coney Island. It’s pretty eerie how many similarities I have with your story! Thanks again for writing it❤️🤗
  7. A Story of Hope

    Thank you for sharing your story!! Beautiful testimony. I enjoyed reading the whole thing. I wish you and your wife years and years of happiness and I know you are really effecting people who were in situations similar to yours. Hope to see you in heaven one day. God bless!!!❤️
  8. Need MASSIVE Prayers to stay on God's Path

    Father God help our ‘daughter of God’ to only hear your voice and not the voice of the enemy. Allow her to have control over the food she eats. I too was neglected as a child and know what it’s like to fall through the cracks! We’re all praying for you here at Worthy.
  9. I came to Christ when I was almost 24 years old but it is too late for me. Ive made so many mistakes that I can’t clean them up and neither can God. I dropped out of school at 20 and never went back. When I tried to go back at 22, it was too late and they said I had to come back at 24 when I’m not under my parents info. Everyday is the same for me. I wake up in the same apartment and do the same stuff. Go to work. I barely have any friends. By now, I’m supposed to have a multitude of friends from college, but I don’t. For years I chased the wrong things thinking I would find my answer. I was a stripper so I cried to god hoping I could become a bartender or a waitress. I never got any bartending Jobs. I got a waitressing job at a hookah bar and I actually left and was rude because I didn’t even know how I was going to pay my rent with 250 at the end of 2 weeks. I was actually super rude at that job. The guy said he was going to increase my pay and add in my tips, but that place didn’t get any business anyway, but still I should have been more grateful. Even little moments like that I was so ungrateful for and didn’t count my blessings, but I didn’t know what to do! I had moved out at 18 and now had rent to pay so I was constantly stressing over that. An atheist has had more of a god than me. I’ve just mad bad decision over bad decision. I have tattoos I don’t even want anymore that I’ll have to remove now. I already started the removal process, but it’s a pricey and long process. I have a flower on my arm. A tiny star on my pinky, a tiny moon on my right pinky and the pyramid sign on the dollar bill is in my left wrist and I have a large tat on my leg that I’ve been trying to remove I have dreams every night of what could have been and what should be of my life. I woke up from a dream seeing myself happy, smiling with other kids in their 20s or maybe I was with my husband being normal. Not to mention, I was also heavily into psychics, tarot cards and other sorcery, but I didn’t think it was “bad” because it was “white magic” such as crystal use. I can’t tell you how many times I visited the occult store and bought a certain crystal to help in a certain department of my life. Last night I read old journal entries from middle school and high school and I had Wicca symbols written everywhere Why is it so much easier for a kid to find/think of occult symbols than to just solely depend on prayer??? I even became friends with a psychic. BIG mistake. I also just recently realized that you can get a counselor for FREE through health insurance. There’s no need to pay a psychic and that’s why I hate myself cause I literally have lived under a rock for years with the mentality of you live and you learn which is DUMB because why not research and be SMART? And then you don’t have to fall into the traps of the world but again growing up I never considered myself evil and never understood the battle going on that we can’t even see. Speaking of my journal entries, I found an entry I wrote when I was 11. I wrote that my grandma thinks I’m mental and she thinks I’ll commit suicide one day. I wrote this at the age of 11! That entry actually makes me want to hold on a bit longer cause I wouldn’t even want her at my funeral. I wish I kept up more with my journals I totally stopped writing in them😞 I live with my mom now whom I was taken from at the age of 4. I can’t even sleep in because she’s always fiddling with plastic bags and opening zippers. She’s been working at the same retail store for 13 years. I wouldn’t call her a role model or anyone to go to for advice, but I was adopted and was ungrateful for everything I got because the family didn’t show me the love that I really wanted like acknowledging my existence by asking me how my day went. I always felt like the black shee. The lady who adopted me was old and all her kids were old enough to be my parents. Anytime I said anything to her, she would go back and tell everyone. I never had a mom to talk about important topics such as virginity, marriage,boys, college. I lost my virginity at 18 and then went on a rampage till like maybe 20. I got “over it” after a while but in the moment I remember talking to a friend and it was something about me I didn’t like but I didn’t know how to control my flesh. Of course at that moment, I didn’t use that terminology because then I definitely would have brought out my bible or started praying, but still I never actually REPENTED. I didn’t repent until just recently so now all my pay sins are just coming up like VOMIT and recently i’m thinking of things all over again feeling bad ALL OVER AGAIN. lately I am an emotional wreck. I’m not as bad as I was a couple weeks ago, but I’m pretty bad still. I went on YouTube and saw a couple who’s my age (24) and they are still virgins and that made me upset. I’m at the age where I realize everyone is getting married, has kids, or has a degree and had a career they like. I went to college for fashion, but that was really dumb of me because I should have just went to a BIG college and maybe just minored in college and majored in English? Idk I just jumped thinking I knew what I was doing and “god had me”. I was never the type to stalk the internet like I do now. The way I am now is how I wish I was then. I don’t talk to the family who adopted me anymore and they don’t talk to me cause they don’t have my number, but I don’t want to talk to them anyway. My sister married and got pregnant by my childhood bully. My life wasn’t bad, but once I became a stripper it’s like the world got into my head and I got used to things going wrong where I said inside “idc” so I kept moving forward until I smacked into a tree and I’m looking around like wow this is what I’ve done! Actually it’s more like Jesus turned the light on and I see all the mess I’ve made. I can’t even picture myself marriaged. I didn’t keep myself pure. I have tattoos on my body. I thought I loved myself until Christ showed me I had 0 respect for myself. Granted yea I know Jesus can fix everything but he can’t go back in time. The timing is all off now. When a person goes to college, that’s when they start their lives. I’m TWENTY FOUR. The age people are graduated or are ALREADY graduated and this is when I’m starting my life???? Come on dude I couldn’t have messed up anymore. I may not have committed suicide yet but I certainly crushed my spirit which is almost the same thing. When I go back, everyone will be 17,18,19... It’s not even like I’m morbidly depressed about everything. I accept it but I just don’t want to live with this anymore!! Why is it so hard to find Christians in real life other than the church? I already met a lesbian who basically said she doesn’t believe in god at work. Another 55 year old atheist and she even has a 25 year old daughter who is an aethist and has a career working with special needs kids. Like come on! That would give me even more of an incentive to believe in god😫
  10. God answered my prayer on the LIRR!

    Woww @sisteracts2, That’s amazing!! Haha I love when small blessings like that❤️
  11. I was on my way to a friends house today. I had to get on the Long Island railroad for only 2 stops. I didn’t have time to get a ticket nor did I have cash on me. I only had a card. The conductor was in the front of the train picking up Tickets and a little bit after I prayed that prayer, the conductor said “brb!” And ran to the back of the train. I was able to get off at the next stop without having to use my debit card and probably be charged extra! God cares about the little things too cause the little things add up to the big things.
  12. I need help as to what to do with my life. I’m 24 and haven’t done anything with my life. I went to college for fashion and dropped out. Now I live with my mother. I think of joining the Air Force or navy. I owe student loans and have to wait 6 months to go back to college. I was adopted from my mom. I don’t even like living with her. I was taken from her for a reason, because she’s crazy. She pays no attention to me. We don’t even talk. The people I know are just people from church I’ve just recently met and even then those people don’t really want to be my friend because I carry to much baggage. I waited really late to repent. Even though I’m clearly alive right now, I feel like I killed myself inside spiritually a long time ago. I wish I could just kill myself and be put into a new body. I screw my whole life up. By the time I graduate college, I’ll be 28 or 29. Most kids graduate way earlier than that. I just have to deal with so many things I’ve done in my life and I don’t realize things are a mistake till after I do them. It’s hard growing up with no family or people who care about you. I just jumped at things and never did my research.
  13. New Christian

    Hello everyone. I’m happy I found this forum. I’m Heather. I’m new to this site and I’m new to Christianity. I lived my life as a very sinful human being. I went to school for something that i’m no longer interested in. I dropped out at 20. I never went back like I should have. I should have went for something different. I was adopted at a young age into a family who didn’t make me feel loved. So after this I became a stripper to pay for my schooling. When I left school, I still was dancing. Right now I work in retail and all those years of me dancing has been for nothing. I feel like I’ve wasted so much time. I met my mom in January which is kind of cool, but she has hoarding problems and works a retail job too. She’s not normal. I just wish I had someone to talk to. I have no family. I wish I knew some other new Christians who could maybe relate to me. I also feel bad because I lost my virginity and wasted it on people who didn’t care about me. I feel so hopeless. Heather the heathen. That’s who I was.
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