Hello!
First of all, I'd like to tell you that I don't speak English fluently and I will probably make some grammatical mistakes.
My name is Marry, I am 14 years old and I'm a Christian.
I've been facing a problem for some time. I always thought I was heterosexual, even if I've never liked boys and I've always stared at girls' "features". In 2016 I realised that I wasn't exactly heterosexual. After many research, I realised that I'm actually a lesbian. I feel depressed. I can't understand why God considers homosexuality a sin. I'm talking about faithful homosexual relationships. Why is it a sin? Is it because they can't procreate? They can adopt children and raise them to be good people. I mean, the Bible doesn't talk about homosexual people who are married and really love each other. It only talks about people who are in a relationship only for sexual intercourse, which is a sin for anyone, no matter their sexual orientation.
Maybe I'm wrong and I didn't understand the Bible properly. I do not want to sin but I also don't want to marry a boy (I'm talking about the future, of course). I don't find boys attractive at all and I can't even connect with them in an emotional way. My family is very loving and understanding, we talk about anything, but homosexuality is something I can't talk about. If I asked them things about it they would realise that I'm a lesbian. I don't really need to be accepted by them or my peers, but I also don't wanna argue with them everyday because I'm a lesbian. I only need to be accepted by God, I need to understand why happily married homosexual people are not accepted by Him.
Sometimes I want to become a guy, that would make me feel free. I would love a girl without sinning.
If you're willing to answer me, I'd be grateful!
Thank you very much!
