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  1. I accepted Christ in 2010 after my divorce. Since 2015 I have been on a decline. I haven't been to church in two years, read the Bible on a very shallow level, and pray with the same attitude. I read a book called dark night of the soul and it describes a lot perfectly, or am I just comfortable and/or lazy. I am not out doing drugs, beating my children, or cheating on my wife, ie behavior of that nature. Although, I am sinning. I have a longing for that closeness, communion with the Lord, but there's just this apathetic attitude that I have, and I can't seem to shake it. The Lord is still actively blessing me, this is coming from a 37 year old man who had a stroke last year and came out the other side very strong. I believe he allowed me to have the stroke for a reason, because he very well could have allow my life to be taken, and I believe that happen for a reason. This is also coming from a man who tried to have a baby with his ex-wife for 12 years and neither one of us could get pregnant, now my new wife is 13 weeks pregnant. My divorce from my ex-wife was very complicated, and very hard. I sought God on what to do about my situation, and stood and stood and stood for my ex-wife till I believe the Lord let me go from those chains. I saw the Lord work miracles in the courtroom without me saying the thing. My new wife grew up Catholic, and I believe she is still holding on to those Catholic beliefs, which some things I believe in does not make sense to her. I have sought God about that for the past six months, and I believe the Lord put her in my life to be my wife and this apathy began before my wife and I even met. I have seen many miracles and many victories in my short amount of time walking with the Lord. I believe he is blessing me because he is who he says he is, becausehe is a good god, he is the Living God, but I just can't seem to shake this apathy, this laziness. when I determine myself to sit down and read the Bible, I get very distracted mentally inside myself. When I pray, it is on a very childlike level, when I used to pray and used to be very deep. I don't think any more background or detail about my story will help anyone reading this. I just wanted to know if anyone has experienced this before in their life, and what should I do to rejuvenate my spiritual life. Thanks in advance
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