joshhmusic

@John_LeungThank you so much for the encouragement. I guess I need to keep my mind on the bigger picture.

Hi. This might sound really immature from your perspective but I'm sick of it. Please hear me out. I'm 16, a junior in high school. I go to a Christian private school. I have not had a legitimate girlfriend yet. A few flames that quickly flickered out, but nothing "normal". I've not even kissed a girl yet. Every one of my peers has had at least one relationship already. Every day I see their sappy social media posts and pictures with each other and it's a constant numb pain in my torso. Don't get me wrong, I'm not seeking attention. Humbly I know I am somewhat attractive. I know I've got game (did I just say that, wow). For real though. I'm just another normal kid and thankfully there's nothing wrong with me, socially or any other way. But every single time I've tried to spark a relationship with someone that I know is in my league, some ridiculous thing just so happens to come up out of nowhere and the spark fizzles out. When I look back, every attempt I've made got messed up in some stupid way that you would think would be extremely rare but happens every time with me. At least 7+ times. It doesn't matter whether they like me or not. It doesn't matter who it is. Nothing ever comes of it no matter what I try. Why can't I just have fun and enjoy puppy love while I'm still a teenager? Is that just forbidden for me? Why am I being prevented from doing normal teenage stuff? At first I didn't care, but it's built up so much over time. I'm literally sick for that feeling of humanly intimate love (not sex). I want what every other teenager has, but I can't have it. I see absolutely no reason why. I've taken this to God many, many times through prayer, but either nothing happens, or the feeling subsides for a small while. I'm sick of just those two results. I'm doing good in school and other things, there's literally no reason I see why I can't enjoy teenager puppy love. I can't have fun like that once I'm an adult. Laugh it up all you want but I'm so sick of it. It is taking a mental toll on me. I've asked my parents for advice on this, but they're like "Oh honey, that's not real love, wait until you're older." Well it seems like every other teenager's doing fine and enjoying their sappy relationships. I've felt sickly strong love a few times before, but it was never reciprocated. For literally the dumbest reasons. I just want to feel humanly love and have it reciprocated for once. I am pining for something that every other teenager has had at least once, but I've never got it and probably not soon at all. I know that God loves me and that is supposed to fill every void in my heart. I have a great relationship with the Lord but apparently that's not enough? Okay??? I'm pretty sure God's love should be more than enough love in my life! I'm stupidly confused. Thank you for your time. Any insight is appreciated. God bless.

Being baptized is important after being saved, but immediately after is not required. As soon as possible is best, however.

If the job offer was from God, then He will definitely make a way for you to make the switch, even after turning the offer down. God be with you in this situation.

Thank you all so much for the brilliant answers!

Thanks for the reply, that definitely could be a possibility! And could you please elaborate more on the peace in my heart?

Hello! Please excuse the long post, hear me out here... Let me start with a little backstory so you know where I'm coming from. I produce music (honestly blessed with the talent but I try to stay humble about it), DJ, and I enjoy almost anything with business. Last year I made a decision at a church camp to be open to any career choice that God gives me. Ever since that week, I fell in love with music production (particularly producing and performing electronic dance music). I truly, honestly have faith that this is for my future! Now I am at a huge fork in the road within my path with music. Should I pursue a career in secular music or Christian music? (Please hear me out) I have been putting some serious thinking, praying to God, and reading His word for the past half-year but nothing has come of it. Or I just haven't seen it yet. I don't know. Concerning a secular music career: I understand that we are called to be separate from the world. But with a secular career, you have a much broader range of people to be your audience. With a much broader range of people following you, you can be a good Christian example in the world to people who are living carnally. A "light in darkness" per se. I believe God has blessed me with the boldness and courage to proclaim to the world that I am not afraid to be a Christian and I am not changing my mind. With a secular music career, you have much more influence over a broader range of people that need it. This is especially the case in the world of live electronic dance music, where a hedonistic lifestyle is extremely prevalent. Like I said earlier, I have given careful thought to my next steps, I have prayed countless times over it, and I have consulted the Bible countless times over it. No answer has come of it yet. Or I just haven't seen it. A lot of the advice I've received is to "take the leap of faith and just go for it". However, I have done that with the decision to go all out for a career in being a DJ/producer for God's glory. I can't apply that to this fork in the road because I don't know which one to just "go for". I've been seriously, madly confused about this for months and I want to know which way God wants me to go. Any advice at all is so, so much appreciated. Thank you so much for your time, and have a blessed day.