I am going through a troubling time in life. I had a traumatic experience in April, in which I ‘thought’ the Holy Sprit told me to kill myself, because I was becoming more and more reprobate everyday, and only heaping up punishment. Now I know do not kill is a command, but this was something I bore witness to, and have prayed about for a year and a half, and still bear witness to this experience. Now I struggle with mental illness, but I beat witness that this is more of a spiritual issue. I’ve been to so many shrinks that shrug this off.
I was just praying to the Holy Spirit and I did my best not to harden my heart and ‘force a voice of my own, and as I softened me heart each time the Holy Spirit said something like..’why didn’t you do it yet’? I know 100 rationally this sounds like demons but I TRULY BEAR WITNESS to this voice with an inner knowing, deep down inside, that it is God!
Please leave this question here and take it seriously because I am struggling very much with this. I want mature Christians to answer this. God bless.