Glock

I was raised in the church and never questioned any of it. Now that I’m grown, I struggle to maintain my faith. These are the things keeping me from peace. If anyone can help me find answers, I honestly want understanding. 1) Biblical errors - most biblical “errors” admittedly aren’t relevant. But some trouble me greatly. For example, who caused David to take a census? Was it God? (2 Samuel 24:1) or Satan? (1 Choronicals 21:1) this has huge implications if you continue to read the story. Many other “contradictions” exist where there are two accounts given of one event. One example of this is how Judas dies (Matthew 27:5 vs. Acts 1:18) Does the Bible speak all truth? If it doesn’t, how do we know the important parts are true? 2) Prayer - I’ve researched prayer thoroughly. Studies largely show that it doesn’t help (I can provide details if necessary) I don’t care for the idea of scientifically evaluating prayer, so I rely on my personal experience. I’ve had my share of trouble in life. Everything from depression, to homelessness, to being mugged and robbed (twice) through it all I prayed continuously and I just never felt or saw any change. Even looking back to praying for salvation. I’ve done it repeatedly. Every time with the utmost of sincerity, and I never feel that “peace” people testify to. Does prayer have a significant effect? Should I feel different after the prayer of salvation? 3) Why is it all so complicated? It seems like every time I study Christianity I just get more questions. Why did God require sacrifices (including his Son)? Why are Old Testament morals so different from my own? Why did Old Testament God focus on one nation instead of all His children? Why do “Christians” read the same book and have such different conclusions? Would God make things difficult/deceptive intentionally? (Matthew 16:18, Mark 4:11-12) I have so many questions... it just seems like God would make it simpler, so people like me who truly want understanding could find it. I really appreciate anyone who read all that. Sorry if I asked too many questions at once lol. Helping me find an answer to just one would mean allot. If you don’t feel like commenting, prayers are always appreciated!