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    Jesus,Christ, Bible, Christian novels, dogs, cats, horses, birds, butterflies, flowers, beautiful old architecture, Beautiful art, fashion design, my art, my poems, my stories, prayer, listening to God, sharing my faith, Christian movies, chocolate, sweets/good food,

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  1. I feel lonely because i stay at home often and I have not been to church in years. I cannot drive a motor vehicle, i don't have a job, but i go to art class one day a week. I live with my parents and they are retired. I help them out at home, clean up the house. I pray and read the Bible, I try to do this every day. I hate the usually unchristian TV shows, there is so much sin in the world, I wish I could avoid it. I have a large movie dvd collection. I see a psychiatrist and counselor. i was raised in a southern baptist Christian family. My parents are disapointed in right wing republican politics. I talk to my parents. I am not normal, but the Lord gave me other talents to make up for what I do not have. I want to tell others about God's love and mercy, how much Christ loves us to die on the cross, He taught us how to live and healed people. Jesus healed me of my broken heart and helped me to forgive people who hurt my feelings and made fun of me, he taught me about love.
  2. I started off going to a Fundamentalist Protestant Christian private school when I was little. The work was too hard, too much to finish. My parents put me in a regular public elementary school after second grade, in third grade I was in a public school class room. It was a major culture shock, the other kids were very different, they might go to church and be Christians, probably a lot of them were Catholics, but they were not dedicated Christians like my family, they were of the world, and these kids did stuff my parents would never allow me and my sister to do. Anyway in third grade public school, I was sent to the school psychiatrist. I was very shy and barely strung three words together. I guess I acted weird. I had trouble because I had been taught not to talk, that talking in class was very bad, plus I was naturally shy. The other kids liked to tease me, they tried to get on the side of me where I had been taught to be obedient. Well I had no idea what a psychiatrist was, she did all these stupid tests. The school people and other child psychiatrists did tests on me, and when I think back on it I feel very angry about it. The world cannot tolerate anyone who is different. The mentally il, the handicap, mentally challenged, disabled, get treated like dirt by stuck up 'normal' people, when its the normal ones that are trash. I was put in special classes for students with learning disabilities. My teacher was very special, she was wonderful, a great teacher. I learned a lot, she inspired me to write stories. Anyway when I went into middle school I was in another special education class with a different teacher. She was nice too. My parents, at the suggestion of the school board, took me to see a child psychiatrist and psychologist. They did the ink blot test, ask questions, They tested my fine motor skills discovered I was clumsy and had trouble with hand-eye coordination. I can't play sports, but I can draw and paint well, my mom gave me art lessons, they were great I learned about different kinds of art and in class experimented with different media and colors. I saw a psychiatrist who prescribed pharmecy medicine for my problems. I don't think I had any seroius mental problems but there were side effects on the prescription medicine I had to take, i hated taking it. I went through teenage problems. I became interested in fantasy novels and movies. I started to like dragons. I always liked unicorns and fairies and Disney princesses since i was a little girl. I questioned my Christian faith I wondered if the God of the Bible was really a good god. Why is there so much blood shed and cruelty in the Bible, and in the world. The pain, suffering and evil of this world got me down. I suffered and wanted to leave this earth. Sometimes I was suicidal. I wished God would take me away to heaven. I read passages of the bilbe that were unpleasant, the devil encouraged me to become angry and rebellious, afraid and hurtful toward God. I think I have depression, a small amount of schizophrenia, I dream and imagine of better things, i fear and worry about bad and worse things. I read about different religions, Judaism, Islam, Buddhism, Hinhuism, Wicca, New Age, I learned about different denominations of Christianity, Catholicism, Eastern Orthodox, Lutherans, Episcopalian church of England, Methodist, Baptist, Amish, Quakers, Just a brief paragraph about each. But I have discovered I need Jehovah/Yahweh and His Son Jesus Christ savior of all humanity. When I am hurting, he heals my broken heart. There is something inside me that hurts, that feels broken and is in need of love. The devil knows how to strike where it hurts the most, he makes me feel to ashamed or uncomfortable to pray. Then, when I do pray It relieves me of the pain and uncomfortable feeling. I know Jesus Christ is the healer of broken hearts. I still see psychiatrists and take prescription medicine, but I think my Lord heals the best. Of all the religions I've read about, I have come home to Christ. Easter is coming soon, I want to praise the Lord Christ he has saved me from my own foolish ways.
  3. Hi, I like the beautiful old medieval gothic cathedrals too. I like the brilliant colors of the stain glass windows. I like the crosses and steeples. I draw some buildings, but I would make a very bad architect because I am very bad at math. I also like some Renaissance churches in Italy. But I think the Pope and others having these magnificent buildings constructed would be wiser to think of the poor and starving they could feed with the money it cost to make these churches, they could feed the poor, especially in centuries past when there were a lot of poor, hungry people. Maybe idolatry could be avoided?
  4. What makes you think Mary and John the baptist never sinned? The only person in the whole history of the world who has never sinned is Jesus Christ. Noah Aaron and Samuel might have been good people who served God; actually Aaron did something very wrong, he made the golden calf out of the Israelite people's gold jewelry and encouraged them in the idol worship of the golden calf, he was not as faithful and dedicated to the Lord like his brother Moses was. They were sinners too. "For all have sinned and fallen short of the glory of God." Faith in Christ is the only way to salvation, to heaven. The real Mary was very humble and righteous, she was a tender and kind loving mother for baby Jesus. The elevation of Mary as "Our Lady" happened while Christianity was being preached all throughout dark age Europe, Mary replaced Venus, the Roman goddess of love and beauty, a fertility goddess. The Queen of Heaven, was some dark and evil female demons like Ishtar, Inanna, Isis, Asherah, Ashtoreth, Astarte, Aphrodite, the German fertility goddess Freya, and some Celtic goddesses, Morrigan, Brigantia, and a lot of other love, fertility goddesses from the local regions they witnessed to as Christian missionaries. The priests of Rome would often make the popular local pagan gods and goddesses into 'Christian' saints. This is how the Christian faith would sway and stray away from the Bible and the truth. In the 4th century Christianity became legal by the Roman empire. Then it became the official religion of the empire. Emperor Constantine fought a battle in the name of Christ, claimed to be a Christian yet did not behave like one. I think it was after Christianity was legalized and became the official religion of Rome that it became corrupt. They started the whole 'saint' thing, and adopted many Roman gods as 'saints'. There is a saint feast day for every day of the year on the Catholic calendar. While medieval and Renaissance Catholics were busy worshiping 'Our Lady' the Catholic church was busy torturing, burning, and murdering real women with false charges of heresy and witchcraft. Men who were early protestants were also tortured and their works destroyed.
  5. Have you read in the OT about Elijah raising a child from the dead with the power of God? And Jesus resurrected Lazarus, and Jairius' daughter, and a young man the only son of a widow. I think when Jesus Christ was born on earth, He brought the divine power of life with him. The power of the resurrection was already with him. He died on the cross as an act of sacrifice to pay for our sins. I have read that part of Matthew about the resurrection of the OT saints. Perhaps the Lord wanted to use them to spread the gospel. I honestly don't know. When I am in heaven I look forward to sitting at Jesus' feet and learning from Him all the things of the Bible I do not understand.
  6. "For God so loved the world he gave his one and only son that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have everlasting life." John 3:16 "Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease, were there are tongues, they will be stilled where there is knowledge it will pass away. For we know in heart, and we prophecy in part, but when perfection comes, the imperfect disappears. When I was a child I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put childish ways behind me. Now we see but a poor reflection as in a mirror, then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part, then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known. And now these three remain: faith, hope, and love. But the greatest of these is love." 1 Corinthians 13:4-13 I like these verses on love.
  7. This is scary. I've decided I would rather commit suicide than let anyone put that mark of the beast on me. I will escape the grasp of those evil psychiatrists. But then there's my parents. They are not behaving very Christian lately. They don't go to church, which means I can't go to church. I can't drive. I have a few mental problems, I am forced to see psychiatrists and take medicine. In my town we have 2 walmarts, publix, walgreens, dollar stores winn dixie, and circle K. We have a lot of stores. This might be a bad idea, but maybe you could move?
  8. The truth is I am against most abortions. I just think there are a few exceptions. If the mother's life is in danger, perhaps the baby will not live long outside the wound and is a waterhead baby and will die a few hours after being born, if he or she will be terribly handicapped and disable, disfigured beformed so much that life would be miserable and painful for him or her, if it is a child of incest or rape, I understand it is not the baby's fault for the father raping the mother. If a woman has loose morals and fools around with several different men, then gets pregnant, she should not blame the baby for her sins in fornication the unborn is innocent. She should put the baby up for adoption. Before the woman gets pregnant, the church and culture needs to preach purity and abstinence, it's too late once she is already pregnant. Jesus preaches pure hearts, but we are faulty, fallen human beings, of course lusts enters our minds once in a while. But we can go to Jesus for forgiveness and help cleansing our minds.
  9. It is best to wait on God's timing. Look at how long it took Abraham to wait! There was that mess with Sarah, Hagar and Ishmael, Sarah got tired of waiting, it was her idea, she was desperate. A woman without children was a considered a real source of shame back then, using servants as surrogate mothers was common. But God did not approve of it. But he had a plan for Hagar and Ishmael. I have learned to wait on the Lord. And I have learned to do the Lord's work. The Lord has saved me from myself.
  10. God will also punish misogynist nations who cruelly abuse women, rapists and sexually harassers, men have no right to say anything about abortion since they will never be in that situation. In medieval and Renaissance Europe and the British Isles women were cruelly tortured for the accusation of witchcraft and heresy, if they survived the torture they would be burned. It was during such dark and evil times that infanticide was a crime, if a woman had an illegal abortion she would be killed. Women didn't have to have abortions, babies and children died all the time from diseases we now have a cure for. If abortion were illegal, women would have back-alley illegal abortions. I used to be pro-life, now I am pro-choice. Hypothetical situation, if a twelve-year old girl were raped by her uncle and she becomes pregnant, should she have an abortion? The incest might make the baby mentally ill or handicapped, with serious disability problems, learning disability, mentally challenged, not right. The girl, at such a young age and body size, her health and life would be in danger from giving birth. I think Jesus would have compassion for women making such a hard decision. He would also have compassion for babies. I would have remained pro-life had I not realized pro-lifers were extremely fanatical and completely unreasonable. They did not want to have exceptions for the mother's life being in danger, or in cases of rape and incest, or if the baby will be a water head baby extremely handicapped and will die a few hours outside the womb. With no exceptions, there is no reason or sanity, they have become insane fanatics.
  11. Hi, Deaf Mouse! I like chocolate and icecream too. my favorite flavors are rocky road, chocolate peanut buttercup, mint chocolate chip, cookies in cream, spumoni cookie dough, and butter pecan. I like those 'drumstick' ice cream cones that come in a pack with a chocolate cone ad chocolate shell covering the ice cream, with chocolate inside the ice cream cone. I like painting, I take art lessons at the local Visual Arts Center. I draw a lot, and use colored pencils. I paint in watercolor and acrylic, and I use graphite and colored pencils. I have used pastels in the past, and I've tried oil paints, but I don't like those methods. I have some adult coloring books, my mom got them for me, I like the one with the garden and the Bible verses. I'd like to draw my own coloring books, see if I can sell them. I'd like to design my own mansion and garden. I'd like to illustrate the Bible, draw a Bible coloring book, or illustrated story book for children. I'd like to write and illustrate some classic fairy tales. I want to re-write the fairy tales to make them Christian. For example, Cinderella will be a suffering servant and bride of Christ. Snow White will be like Eve, she looses her purity and is resurrected by Christ's love, and the wicked queen like Jezebel.
  12. Hi welcome! I watch animal planet with the Irwins. I don't like scary crocodiles and snakes, but I live in Florida and we have alligators and snakes. Alligators are not as aggressive as crocodiles. There are some beautiful birds that come from Australia. I've had budgie/parakeets and cockatiels as pets, they are sweet little birds. There are beautiful rainbow lorikeets and pretty species of lories in bright colors. There's cockatoos, much different from cockatiels that are from Australia and make good pets. There's different breeds of parakeets and parrots, there's a bird called an Eastern Rosella, I think it comes from New Zealand. In Florida we have roseate spoonbills, scrub jays, great blue herons, sand hill cranes, and snowy egrets. I like birds, I draw and paint pretty colorful birds. My mom likes chickens, she decorates with ceramic, glass, stuffed, metal, wood and chicken pictures and paintings in the house. I've drawn and painting pictures of chickens for her. I'd like to paint a picture of peacocks, peacocks are so beautiful.
  13. Thanks for the warm welcome. I like the Bible verses. I like "Those who wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength, they will mount up on wings like eagles, they will run and not be weary, they will walk and not be faint." Isaiah 40:31 Also "Love is patient, love is kind, it does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. it always protects, always trusts, alwayshopes, always preserves. 1 Corinthians 13:4-7
  14. Hi, I am from Florida and enjoying the mild winter weather, am getting lonely, I have mental problems and I get depressed sometimes, cried for about two hours today because I wanted someone to talk to, wanted a friend, God is a good, faithful friend but sometimes I need a person. I still live with my parents and I'm in my thirties. My parents are retired. So I went to be with my mom and dad in the den, and my mom let me use the computer, so i decided to find a chatroom, especially a Christian chatroom. We are behind on technology, our computer is old, we have cell phones but not smart phones, iphones or blackberries, and I have an old labtop but it does not have internet service, i use it to write my stories. I like to write fiction stories, sometimes adventure, sometimes Christian fantasy with spiritual warfare, sometimes romance and or history. I also draw historical fashion designs. I draw queen of hearts for Valentine's Day, i also draw and paint roses for Valentine's Day, and angels, not Cupid, he is pagan, but a cute little girl angel in a pink Victorian frock with flowers and wings. I'd like to paint or draw a rose garden and a rose-covered cottage. I am glad the Lord gave me this talent becasue without it I would be so bored and so much more depressed. Maybe tears are a cathartic thing for me, I feel better after I put away the tears, Jesus said "Blessed are they who mourn, for they shall be comforted." I pray for other people in suffering when I hear about it on the news, like the government employees in such dire straits having to work but not get paid, I am glad the government shut down is over. I think God wants us to be happy, though, there is a time to be happy and a time to be sad. I come from a southern Baptist family. Mental illness runs in the family. My sister has really bad problems, and it hurts because I love her. My parents and I do not go to church anymore. That's my opinion. I got started in art as a child, my mom took me and my sister to an art supply and craft store, thinking about art lessons for my sister, who is elder than me. The teacher said I was the one who would be an artist. So I stayed and took lessons with my sister, ended up going to art classes and learning a lot. I liked fairy tale and fantasy art. I liked fairy tales when i was young, a child. Now Jesus Christ is my Prince Charming. I read world mythology, and the Bible, and I like the God of the Bible over the immoral and selfish petty 'gods' of the mythologies of various cultures around the globe. God is mighty and rules Earth, and the universe from heaven, he chooses his people the Israelites and punishes them when they disobey. The mythological gods act like people, as weak and selfish and petty as people, bad people. I got involved with fantasy novels, some a bout dragons, many about fantasy worlds, magic kingdoms, fairies, unicorns, etc. I started to write my own stories. I read historical romance. I prefered Christian romance to the dime-a dozen trash historical romance novels most women like to read My 5th grade teach was the one who started me with writing. I have come a long way with my relationship with Christ. I have questioned an argued, I have read difficult verses in the Bible that hurt my feelings and made me question God's goodness. I wanted love, a God of love, and that is what I got. I realize the necessity for Jesus death on the cross, I have acknowledge the horror of my own sin, I have repented and decided I will obey God and the Bible. I have read Christian fantasy books. I want to write Christian fantasy. I know what the Bible says about magic and witchcraft. It is a serious sin. In my stories the magic is mostly done by the bad guys, evil wizards, magicians, warlocks, witches, sorceresses, etc. There will be miracles done by the power of the Holy Spirit, and some imaginary fantastic creatures, unicorns and fairies, and they believe in Jesus christ like the good humans do. I am working on a few stories, some of them are realistic. It is getting late, must say goodnight. God bless everyone, sweet dreams.
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