Hi Kim! I will make mention of you in my prayers.
As a human being we observe the lives of organisms, and all living creatures; And from this observation we are aware that it all came from something. Everything has a pattern. Babies come from grown humans, and oranges come from trees. Everything we see has a beginning and an end. This is a law that God set upon the Earth.
From our understanding as humans we have developed a thought pattern too. And this has accompanied us throughout our lives. But this is earthly wisdom. And with this knowledge we have, we then ask ourselves where God came from. We expect Him to have a point of origin as well. But these earthly rules don’t apply to Him.
The Bible talks about such matters. Ecclesiastes 8:16, 17
16 When I applied mine heart to know wisdom, and to see the business that is done upon the earth: (for also there is that neither day nor night seeth sleep with his eyes:)
17 Then I beheld all the work of God, that a man cannot find out the work that is done under the sun: because though a man labour to seek it out, yet he shall not find it; yea further; though a wise man think to know it, yet shall he not be able to find it.