What you shared is honestly one of the most practical advise I have yet heard. I am trying to. I admit my flesh is a lot stronger than my spirit now. But thank you for spending the time to reply. I appreciate it a lot.
No. Honestly that's one of the many struggles I have with this church. It is quite a big church, the Pastor literally doesn't know anyone other than the 'church leaders' she is discipling/training. I went to my leaders of course. That didn't help.
So one reason why I seek to find a site like this because I wanted to stay anonymous as much as I can while I share my struggle. I got judgement from my local church already which made me stop going for good. Just to make it short, I used to like this church but the moment I start sharing my spiritual struggles they start judging (I know the difference between open rebuke vs people just literally judging my 'weakness'). I have a few friends whom I remain in contact with cos I feel genuine concern from them but I stop going to the church all together. I feel like this is wrong as I shouldn't be generalizing the entire fellowship bcos of few bad apples BUT I cant push myself to go back. I feel like if I do, I'll just go there out of obligation but not from the heart. So I still struggle spiritually and socially I guess.