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So this is probably strange for alot of you who aren't aware that there is actually a spiritual realm and there are such thing as demons, and there is a constant fight against satan. So I'll start off by saying this when I was 14 or 15 I was led to go to church and got convicted of sin for bullying some kids like in school and on the bus i have already at that time stopped bullying ppl because I changed schools, and I decided not to be like all of the so called popular kids and turned from being a class clown and bully to the person that got bullied and all this led me to smoking weed and drinking then something happened I got the just very uneasy feeling like something wasn't rite like I guess a doctor would call it depression but I had depression when I was younger and this wasn't the same like I knew it was spiritual and my mom knew about demons but we wasn't church goers and she ended up taking me to the hospital because I wouldn't hardly speak I just told here something was wrong with me and when we got to the hospital while laying in a hospital bed my mom and dad was sitting beside me and she didnt know what was wrong with me, and she was talking to my dad then she said it could be a demon, I had no clue at the time demons were really really real but I said yes that's what it is and my mom didnt want to tell the drs that, but the dr came in and asked why we were there and and what was wrong with me and i told them it was demon because I just wanted help, but they sent me to a mental institution and I ended up being attacked there, kids there where calling my name like and saying strange stuff like they wouldn't even be in the same room as me and I could hear them yelling from there room speaking to me. And was hearing stuff in the walls, but my mom told family about it and they knew a pastor and they came and did a deliverance on me and they left it was like nothing happened until about 10 mins or so after they left I drank some salt water and was laying down and felt something come up in my throat and I gagged it up it was a black gooy substance that was about the size of a half dollar or so and I got up and spit it in the trash. Later on the next couple days I started doing better I wasn't fully normal but I was able to leave and the pastor invited us to church and we went to church and I still wasn't perfectly normal but I got where I felt like I should get up and go to the front and say something to everybody the cause I saw like this vision or something whether it was from the lord jesus or not idk but I saw like a vision of me doing that so I did it I went up to the front and got handed the Mike and started to saying something idk what I was going to say at the time but I ended up saying something totally different then what I originally intended I got convicted I said I was sorry for bullying some kids that was there because they where the same kids that rode my bus that I used to pick on and I started crying alot probably or maybe the most i have ever cried and while I was crying and started walking back to my seat and while I was crying I remember having a decision to call out to god or call out to Jesus, I said Jesus desperately and forced myself to stop crying because I started to get embarrassed and stuff and continued to my seat and while I was still walking to my seat Jesus filled me with his grace it was the best and most unusually awsome thing that has ever happened to me I could try to describe it which I have tryed to do before but unless you know you really dont know I guess. But here's where it gets strange after church we leave and are going home and we turned on some christian music and I started feeling really joyful and full of hope and faith and knew Jesus was very truly real and loved me and as we where driving home I saw I dead dog in the road and the seen an angel or its spirit or a spirit come off or out of the dog and I told my parents and idk if they believed me or not but they was asking me about it and I told them and I also seen a black figure standing out front of someones house on the way home and this was kinda the start of things for me I felt great for I would say atleast 2 years before I backslid I wasn't a bully anymore but I ended up partying,drinking and later on started smoking weed agian and eventually I lost the joy that I had I started feeling really bad all of the sudden and I tryed straightening up i quit drinking but i couldn't quit smoking weed and i was repenting asking for forgiveness to get that joy and faith back but I ended up back in mental institution because something came over me one night rite after getting done praying and my dad started yelling about something and I completely snapped, blacked out, but more than likely a evil spirit took control of me and i beat up 2 ppl in my house and got the cops called on me and when they took me to jail I got really opressed, or possessed or delusional as a doctor would call it and started having weird visions or dreams and it lasted a long time while I was in there I was in there for about 2 weeks and only remember a few days or so I got out and was drove straight to church where they tryed or did do a deliverance on me I still didnt feel completely normal afterwards and the pastor told me I still had one left, and i try getting deliverence completely several more times and still wasn't completely normal but was far better than when i went to jail and i didnt smoke weed anymore at the time and i continue seeking Jesus and trying to do whatever i could do to get the peace and joy and faith back that I had before and kept trying to get that back for years and my pastor still said there was a demon left in me and I kept trying to get delivered and this one time she said my eyes turned into like cat eyes which was hard to believe at the time because i could see stuff but i didnt want to believe i had one in me and made me look like I had cat eyes I just didnt want to belive that and didnt understand how that could be because I was all about Jesus but eventually we haven't tryed doing anymore deliverances because she said I needed to try harder but I dont smoke week or drink anymore I do vape and I'm mostly always thinking about Jesus and I've been quite some time like this and recently I started hearing voices and seeing stuff alot but in my house and we have had ppl come try to cleanse the house but i still hear stuff and see stuff and earlier I was just curious to see what my eyes would look like in the mirror and I said Jesus Christ in my head to see if I could see the Holy Ghost in me which sounds weird probably but when I'm at church and stuff I can see stuff in ppls eyes like I've tryed teaching myself what the things I see in there eyes mean, but I was looking in the mirror and I said Jesus Christ in my head and i seen one of my eyes turn into what looked like a red cat eye it convinced me that what my pastor said was true but I dont really know what this means now or where to go from here. I've been getting attacked alot here lately for the past few weeks or so I've been reading my bible and praying and almost always listening to Christian music. Jesus has help me alot through these times I've had strengthening me and helping me fight these battles that satan has already lost.. But that's pretty much it for now. ...prayers would be greatly appreciated. God bless

Gonna keep it short: Me and my family was invited to church after some things happened that led us to have a pastor pray for me anyways once they invited us to church we go the following service and I get convicted and start to cry and apologize for sins that I have done and while I was crying or rite when I stopped crying I felt like warm and a perfect peace inside of me and felt weightless like I was floating, i was just wondering if this was for sure the holy ghost? I didnt speak in tounges when it happened I have recently but not until 7 years later that I spoke in tongues. So what do I call this experience ? Thanks for reading any comments are appreciated. God bless.

Thank you all for you advise and prayers

Can y'all give me scripture that says we cannot be possessed if we have been filled with the holy ghost because I believe I was filled with the holy ghost but my parents and my "old" pasture she also thinks I was possessed a few years after getting the holy ghost. I dont know what to believe tbh I was very delusional and out of it when I had the mental breakdowns and had a time where a whole week or so went by and didnt remember any of it. So if you cant be possessed if you are a Christian and filled with the holy ghost (which I am) is true then y do they think this and y did I go through this they did diagnose me with schizophrenia.

When I was 14 or 15 me and my parents was invited to church it wasn't my first time in church but it was my first in along time in the middle of church I felt led to get up and fo to the alter so I did and I started confessing my sins and I bursted into tears and felt this warm love and lightness like I was floating I felt light as a feather. I didnt speak in tounges or start shaking or anything like that but I knew it was from god.

I was filled with the holy ghost/spirit 7 years ago and it was awesome I had joy peace and I new for certain I was loved by god. After about 2 years I lost all the fruits of the spirit had no joy peace and felt like the holy ghost just left me maybe I greived the holy spirit or maybe he is just quiet but I haven't felt the holy ghost or felt like I even have the holy ghost in years. Since then I've had many mental breakdowns and was told i was demon possessed by my pasture. She tried to deliver me from the demons and said a few have left but I still have 1 left. We've tried multiple times and and she still thinks i have a demon in me. I was told if you have the holy ghost you cant be demon possessed. So that would have to mean if she's rite then I dont have the holy ghost anymore. I was wondering if I would ever get the holy ghost back or if maybe she is wrong and I still have the holy ghost but he's just been quite for years I really dont know and would appreciate some elders advice. Thanks.

I was filled with the holy ghost about 7 years ago and did not speak in tounges. I was praying one night a few months ago and started speaking in tounges and tried to do it again for several weeks afterwards and couldn't seem to do it but, now when I try I can but it's very brief. I was told by my pastor who speaks in tounges that it can come from satan also, so I was wondering how do I know if me speaking in tounges is from the holy ghost/spirit or from satan I dont feel the holy ghost when it happens so I was just wondering.

Hi I was doing a lot of research last night on the holy ghost anyways, out of nowhere I started smelling this sweet smell kind of like bread or corn bread it was pretty late at night and I was just wondering if maybe it was God trying to tell me something or if this was a way of him manifesting himself to me?