Hi Jesusispeace,
am very sorry about your painful time ,but i also would like to suggest you to give her some time please.
This is a very strong relationship you know ,you are same important to her as She is for you.But sometimes we need a break to find out and to gather more strength to move forward. I know this from my personal experience not exactly but in another way. I wants to give you the hope that God is gonna listen to your request and it will surely change with time.
your well wisher