Hi everyone
I want to share my story to help me gain wisdom and a way out from my current circumstances.
I'm 41 and have been smoking marijuana daily for over 20 years. It has caused me allot of problems including deep depression and crippling anxiety amongst other things.
Just 8 years ago after a life of hating god for making my life a misery I looked into spirituality. Before long I was hooked and delved in head first.
Meditation, yoga, kundalini activation, reiki healing, psychic readings, tarot cards, energy transmissions, mantra etc. I've tried everything and was even close to summoning demons to help me with my problems.
I have become energy sensitive where I can feel out a person very easily and also starting to see visual phenomena like shadows and energetic colours in the air when my mind goes blank from all these years meditating.
The kundalini spirit is active inside me and whenever I lie down to sleep or just relax on the sofa it starts to move inside me and I feel my throat and head fill with pressure and a energetic churning.
This feeling is somewhat enjoyable like a buzz but I know it's of the devil and it won't leave.
Last year I met 3 people from the last reformation who did there best to deliver me from this. As usual the kundalini shook my body but just wouldn't leave.
I pray to Jesus to remove this oppression from me but nothing happens.
I tried a self deliverance a few weeks ago using a YouTube video. My body shook and I was squirming around on.my bed. My mouth fully opened by itself but the demons wouldn't come out.
The kundalini is like an electrical feeling and it feels pretty good and made Me confused as to is this the holy spirit maybe.
I am full of sin, cannot stop smoking weed everyday, cigarettes and alcohol on occasions.
I asked Jesus and the holy spirit please fill me with your love. Something felt slightly different when I asked for the holy spirit the energy was lesser but have me goosebumps.
I think next I need to be baptized as even tho my faith in Jesus is growing something inside me has a powerful stronghold that won't break.
As my mind is pretty much now blank from all this meditation I don't feel whole or complete.
I don't know what to do now except pray and wait till October when Mark Hamans comes to town.
Thank you for reading
