Hello, everyone. Now just a few words about myself. I'm 30, male and have been a Christian for nearly 13 years (backslid twice, then got back to God).
I've actually been struggling with horrible anxiety attacks for many years, and the scariest part of it is, everytime it seems to me that I am going to die soon - which is typical for many panic attack sufferers - I get terribly afraid of not just dying but also of ending up in hell once I die. I've asked my church to pray for me and I've even talked with many pastors and all they said was I should totally rely on God and have faith and trust in Him. Which I completely agree with but.. it doesn't seem to help, honestly. And yes, I know that God is loving, merciful and is willing to forgive and save but the thing is, the Bible actually says that only few people get saved, right? Often when I read the Bible I can see that it is - even though not impossible - but still extremely difficult to get saved.
Well, I realize that God is the only one who can save and there's really nothing I can do other than repent and follow Jesus sincerely but even if you do what if you're still not holy or righteous enough? The Bible says clearly: "Nothing impure will ever enter it (heaven), nor will anyone who does what is shameful or deceitful, but only those whose names are written in the Lamb’s book of life." (Revelation 21:27).
Also, to tell you the truth, lately I've started to struggle with the very concept of hell. See, you probly heard that like a thousand times or more but I just can't help but want to ask again: How can a loving God that loves all the people so much still let most of them go to a place of eternal torturte?
Appreciate your answers and advice.
Mikhail
