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  1. I'm glad to be able to post that things are starting to look up for me. I've managed to keep my apartment and get most things under control with my bills, just a small balance forward left to pay off before the 10th of November. I've also managed to find a new job, that I start next week! I think a new thing to focus on will help me to heal from all that's happened. My son wouldn't want me to mope and never take care of MYSELF. I'm doing all of this for him, until the day I see him again. Taking it one day at a time. Today I hope to focus on finding work clothes and getting groceries, seeing as I haven't eaten in a couple days and I definitely need suitable clothes for work. No uniform, but certain colors and styles are needed. Not sure how I'll manage for the next 2 or so weeks until I get my first paycheck, but I'll try my hardest. I won't give up, I CAN'T give up now. Thank you, to everyone here, for your prayers and help. I appreciate it more than you know <3
  2. I don't even know how to begin this...my head is still spinning. At 5:38 this morning, my perfect little man passed away in his sleep. His little heart and body just couldn't take being so sick. He fought as hard as he could and was just too tired. I pray more than anything in the world that he's in Gods arms now, no longer suffering. Waiting for the day that I'll see him again. My heart is absolutely broken. I'M broken. How am I supposed to keep going when he isn't here with me? His life had just begun and now he's gone. I don't know what to do or say or how to cope with any of this. I just want to scream and cry more than I already have, but it won't bring him back... Now I have to try and plan a funeral for my own child while I'm grieving. I can't even afford it, the burial that he deserves. He shouldn't even be HAVING one, he should still be with me, but he's not. And I can't even properly lay him to rest. Please, pray that he's happy now. That he's not hurting. And that I'll get through this somehow. I'll be adding links for donations to help with his service and burial as well as to send cards that can be printed out later for his funeral. I want him to know he was loved and cared about, even by people that never got to meet him or know him. If anyone can talk...or just offer any words of comfort, please message me. I just need...PEOPLE right now. If I don't answer right away, I'm sorry. I'm just trying to understand this. Thank you, to everyone who prayed from the start for him to heal. I guess the Lord just wanted him close far sooner than I was ready to let him go.
  3. He was rushed to the hospital almost two days ago after he started having trouble breathing, despite being on medication to help him recover from bronchitis and breathe BETTER. The doctors managed to get him stable and for a few hours, he seemed to be improving. I was able to hold him again, too. Then, when the nurses tried to take his oxygen flow from 6 liters to 5 liters, half an hour later his rate went down to 90 and his oxygen dropped to 30 and they had to bag him. Right in front of me, I was watching my little man fighting for his life. This morning, he was doing better, on medication to get some of the fluid off his little lungs. Then, his oxygen dropped back down to 32 and we had to wait hours yesterday for waiting on ANOTHER transfusion. He's been awake and fussy, which the doctors assure me is actually a good thing, but I feel so bad for the little guy. He's being so tough though! With most other things now taken care of, I don't have to worry about not having my apartment, either. It's just stress over what comes next for my little man. Doctors have talked about brain damage, since his oxygen has kept dropping over and over, but nothing is certain. With everything going on, he's needed a lot of extra care too, and will need it at home when he IS released. It's been a battle with him and will likely continue to be one, so please pray for my little guy! He needs all the strength he can get!
  4. Thanks to a few kind people after my last post, I was able to at least keep a roof over my head and my little guys head for a bit longer. I thought my luck had turned, that things were looking up. Unfortunately, things haven't gone quite that way. My late fees on bills had been paid, which I thought left me in the clear for at least another month, as I was told it would. Come to find out, that's not the case. As of right now, I have no internet (only limited data on a government-provided phone), and the late portion of my electric bill is due in full by the first or it'll be shut off. I tried contacting family for any little bit of help, family that I haven't spoken to in years, only to be met with being hung up on. On top of the bill issues that I'm trying to handle, my little ones SNAP benefits are late because of a paperwork issue. Hopefully that'll be resolved soon enough and we'll get some food in our bellies again. We've got some oatmeal to munch on in the mean time, at least! I'm still even stressed over basic items I can't provide my child with. Or myself. Soap, pads, TP, out of everything. Haven't BEEN able to get them since my last post. Napkins I found were substitutes wherever we could use them. I've contacted churches again, and the pastor of one who I've become friends with, but they still aren't able to help much, sadly. They provided the oatmeal that we have now, but that's all that was in the food pantry. It sadly doesn't help with non-food items we need as well. The icing on the cake? Not being able to afford medicine for my son, who's been sick the past couple of days. Insurance won't cover what he needs and I can't afford to pay out-of-pocket, even with discounts. I feel like I'm sinking down even further. Like I can't get out of this and I've been left on my own. I know I may not get answer, but I wish I knew why this was happening. Why all this keeps getting thrown at me. I've grown up hearing that God never gives us more than we can handle, but I CAN'T handle this. It's one thing after another hitting me and dragging me down. Either way, I hate it, I hate having to ask for help as a parent, but I'm at the point where I have no choice. If it's not allowed, I'll remove it right away, just let me know! No one has to help at all, I'd be grateful for just a few kind words or even something funny to get my little guy to smile and maybe feel a little better. Thank you <3
  5. I posted this as a prayer request as well, but I could use advice, too. Or someone to talk to. I've had a run of bad luck lately and it just seems to keep piling on. I can't get out of this rut. Normally, things are fine. Breaking even on everything, even with visits to the hospital. Lately, that's not the case. I've been searching for a job, whether online or locally, for months now and had no luck. This has caused me to fall behind on bills. It wasn't a huge issue at first, I'm able to be a month behind on a few bills and just pay my balance forward. easy enough. But with late fees piling up, I can no longer afford to do even that. Most of my bills are due Friday. If I don't get the electric/utility bill paid, or at least the late fees and balance forward, my power will be shut off. With no job and not enough income from my little ones child support to even cover all my normal bills, power cut off means getting evicted from our apartment, because I can't afford to pay the bill AND have it turned back on. Can't afford either at this point, really. I'm also behind on my phone/internet bill. Because there are only plans that allow bundling, I can't ditch one and just HAVE one. It has to be a more expensive bundle or I have no phone at all. I CAN'T fall behind on this one because it IS instantly cut off. Thankfully I was able to get a weeks extension, but after paying what I COULD on my electric bill, though it wasn't enough, I have no way to pay the phone bill. Even beyond all that mess, I'm unable to even get basic necessities. Hygiene items (TP, pads, trash bags), food, all a big nope. I've looked into SOME suggestions from others, churches and food banks, and had no luck. The church nearest to us that we could walk to, which is also the food bank/pantry, hasn't been able to help ANYONE for a while now, due to no donations coming in and people who don't NEED help taking advantage of what was there before. If you drive a jacked up, chromed up truck and have gold chains around your neck, you don't need to be at a Food Bank, just my opinion on that. Food wise, SNAP benefits for my little guy don't come in until the 17th, so that doesn't really help us right now. As far as family goes, we aren't in contact after a fallout a little over 2 years ago, so I can't ask them for help. Friends, the few I have, haven't been able to help either. It's starting to feel like no matter what I do, I CAN'T get out of this. I've been doing my best, but I feel like a bad parent, not being able to provide for my child. I know that rough patches in life are unavoidable, but that doesn't change how I feel. I appreciate any and all prayers, or even advice/kind words. Everything is very much appreciated.
  6. Thank you all for all the prayers so far, I appreciate them very much <3
  7. If it's alright, I'd like to ask for prayers for me and my little one. I've had a run of bad luck lately and it just seems to keep piling on. I can't get out of this rut. Normally, things are fine. Breaking even on everything, even with visits to the hospital. Lately, that's not the case. I've been searching for a job, whether online or locally, for months now and had no luck. This has caused me to fall behind on bills. It wasn't a huge issue at first, I'm able to be a month behind on a few bills and just pay my balance forward. easy enough. But with late fees piling up, I can no longer afford to do even that. Most of my bills are due Friday. If I don't get the electric/utility bill paid, or at least the late fees and balance forward, my power will be shut off. With no job and not enough income from my little ones child support to even cover all my normal bills, power cut off means getting evicted from our apartment, because I can't afford to pay the bill AND have it turned back on. Can't afford either at this point, really. I'm also behind on my phone/internet bill. Because there are only plans that allow bundling, I can't ditch one and just HAVE one. It has to be a more expensive bundle or I have no phone at all. I CAN'T fall behind on this one because it IS instantly cut off. Thankfully the bill isn't due until the 15th, but after paying what I COULD on my electric bill, though it wasn't enough, I have no way to pay the phone bill. Even beyond all that mess, I'm unable to even get basic necessities. Hygiene items (TP, pads, trash bags), food, all a big nope. I've looked into SOME suggestions from others, churches and food banks, and had no luck. The church nearest to us that we could walk to, which is also the food bank/pantry, hasn't been able to help ANYONE for a while now, due to no donations coming in and people who don't NEED help taking advantage of what was there before. If you drive a jacked up, chromed up truck and have gold chains around your neck, you don't need to be at a Food Bank, just my opinion on that. Food wise, SNAP benefits for my little guy don't come in until the 17th, so that doesn't really help us right now. As far as family goes, we aren't in contact after a fallout a little over 2 years ago, so I can't ask them for help. Friends, the few I have, haven't been able to help either. It's starting to feel like no matter what I do, I CAN'T get out of this. I've been doing my best, but I feel like a bad parent, not being able to provide for my child. I know that rough patches in life are unavoidable, but that doesn't change how I feel. I appreciate any and all prayers, or even advice/kind words. Everything is very much appreciated.
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  9. So I'm new here and thought I should say hello! I'm a single mom with the sweetest little boy ever. We've been struggling a little lately, but I have hope that we'll be ok and get through what's troubling us! I'm very happy to be here.
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