Jesusispeace....Listen to me. I know all about your predicaments. Please understand how precious your believing in Christ is. You are already in a very small percentage of the worlds population. Dwell on that, appreciate that, build on that.....and use that to draw strength from to handle your issues.
Just realize no matter what you have to go through....you will have eternity awaiting with glory unspeakable...just by your accepting Christ and following him.
You could have all the money in the world, the best loving family and friends, and yet many experiencing such without Christ will find an eternity void of what you will be experiencing. When we have been there 10000 years, we no less days than when we begun.
Believe me....I must follow my same advice. I doubt you would believe my story, but will never tell it anyway. Trust me, I KNOW how trusting in Christ, and reading my Bible in a "show me it's TRUE attitude, has put a most joyous spring in my step with a life that would crush most people.