Hi there, i'm very new to this website so I hope i'm doing the right thing haha.
I was wondering for some advice and prayer as for years I have struggled with feelings and thoughts of condemnation and fear of judgement. I gave my life to Jesus 8 years ago. It was the best thing to ever happen in my life. I grew for 2 years in close relationship with God and felt very secure and loved by my Father. After 2 years of my walk, I started to have terrible panic attacks about judgement from God. I couldn't sense His presence. I thought I was being cast aside from God, I was overcome with crippling fear and anxiety. It's now 6 years later and i'm still struggling with this. I worry too often about how narrow the path is to Life and whether I could be one of those people that Jesus could say "depart from me, I never knew you". I really struggle with this and struggle to become close to God with terrible thoughts of doubt over salvation. I believe Jesus died in payment for my sins and rose again however these terrible thoughts I can't seem to shift. I'm a very insecure person and I just can't seem to receive piece of mind over this. Even if I do for a short time, it will creep back in and send me into terrible panic. I've had people say to me that you can't loose salvation however others who have said you can. I'm stuck in this pit of confusion and I really need some help to overcome it.
Thank you for taking the time to read my post. Please be as truthful as you can in your response. I would appreciate as much response as I can get as i'm coming to a realy desperate place of wanting to be free from this. I know we aren't to have any doubts but this is what I can't shift.