In the midst of this ongoing crisis, I find myself struggling with all kinds of emotions and feelings. I've had two summer trips canceled on me and I spend my days at work dealing with some of the most selfish, rude, disrespectful people I've ever met. I feel disappointed and frustrated over these things, and then I feel angry at myself for feeling this way over pity insignificant things. I should be happy I still have a job. Trips are frivolity and don't matter in the long run. I'm caught between the maskes and the anti-maskers, both parties have brutally attacked me and my coworkers over the restrictions implemented by state and local ordinances. And then I find out I've been exposed to covid, by at least one person who willfully withheld her own exposure for several days. I've been driven away from my church by mistreatment perpetrated by church leaders, so I don't feel like I have a church family to lean on anymore. I feel beaten down and tired and hopeless. Maybe I'm just self centered and whiny, but this is what I'm going through and I have nowhere else to go.
