I'm going to start with saying I'm single, autistic, still living with my parents. I have concerns about things such as possibility of future spouse and being submissive to my husband if I ever find one.
See.. I feel a strong sense of loneliness, a desire for companionship, for someone to be there for me in ways my family cannot. A good Christian man. And, because I'm convert possibly a teacher and good influence as well.
But, on another level I feel it is best for me not to marry. As because when I read Timothy, about being submissive, and being saved by child-bearing and being silent and obedient and all that. And the reason I feel it is best for me not to marry despite my desire for a loving relationship, is because living as submissive and doing whatever I'm told to by a husband, the constriction would soon become Hellish. I don't know how to describe it, but I feel that living in a way without freedom and escape would cause more pain than living without love of another.