Alec2

I have phased out the meds little by little over a period of 2 years. It's been weeks since I have taken any medicine. I think I'm clean now. I don't know what the caretakers can do. I don't think they can force me to take medicine since I'm not living in a psych ward anymore. They cannot commit me to psych ward because I haven't really been a danger to myself or others for a long time. They can pressure me to move out, but that's what I'm planning to do anyway.

Okay. The way I understand your message is this: no matter how I do it, I tell the truth.

Hello David, Thank you for your kind words, and it's relieving to know that others have been through something similar as I. And yes, the suicidal threats were unfortunate, but I must say that I wasn't a Christian back then even though I was reading through the Bible for the first time and was heavily considering Christianity, but I still had strong doubts during the time of those threats. Knowing what I know now, I would never do anything similar again because I consider intentionally harming oneself as bad as harming others. By the way, Alec is not my real name. I'm not willing to reveal my real name at this time. I'm sure everything will turn out fine, my current situation is good all things considered especially compared to what it was 2-3 years ago. Bless you.

Are you saying that I should go out of my way to tell the truth, or tell the truth if the employees ask about it?

Yes, it would probably be called something like that in English. We have planned with my caregivers that I'm going to move out within several months, I have severe doubt that they will order such lab work before that because they haven't done so before during my 2-year stay. My diagnosis is schizophrenia, for whatever that's worth, neither my family or me believe that. The medication is olanzapine or Zyprexa, which I'm not currently taking, and which I have taken very little over the past 2 years.

Thank you for the advice other one and Galleon, I'll try to do that. Blessings.

Hi guys and gals and thank you for the welcome! I made this particular post in the worthy welcome forum to get approved as an user and a moderator moved it here, I made another post in which I detailed the situation:

Also, I can move out when I want to, but otherwise this has been a pretty good and safe place to live. I'm just considering whether I should tell them the truth before or after I move out, or possibly never like my mother wants.

Hello, I came here to mostly talk about this problem I have because you seem like people I can trust. First, I believe that Jesus Christ literally was the son of God made flesh, and he literally rose from the dead after being crucified. In 2017 I had a nervous breakdown and a psychotic episode. That was the only time in my life that I have suffered from elongated psychotic episode, otherwise I have had a roughly normal view of reality. I was put into a psych ward and forced to take meds. If I didn't want to take meds, the nurses would bind my hands and force me to take them via injection. After I was released from the psych ward, I was forced to move to a housing unit with employees guarding that the inhabitants live properly, take meds, and don't do anything out of line. I still live there. When I came to this housing unit they would give me medicine by injection, but the medicine made me feel utterly terrible, so terrible that I even made some feeble half-serious attempts at suicide a few times. The doctor said that under no condition can I stop taking medicine. So I persuaded the doctor to switch to oral medicine. And since that point I have lied to the doctor and the employees about taking that medicine, even though I have taken it far less, or often not at all. The employees have power over my life, so I've been afraid about what they would do if they found out the truth. I don't think I'm insane. I had the psychotic episode in the fall of 2017, but anything like that had never happened before that or has never happened ever since that. Atheists consider strong belief in literal, actual God and Christ to be peculiar, and lately I've been having doubts whether Earth is really 4.5 billion years old as some scientists say, but those are the only beliefs that are different from many other people. Both of my parents have said that I should never tell them the truth, especially my mother who has been very adamant about that. Should I tell the truth?

I have a problem in my life that I think you could help me with.