LeepForJoy

Thank you, and Praise to the Lord Almighty that He brought you through it, and you have become a blessing to us. Thanks for the scripture quotes, all so comforting. Psalm 91 happens to be my wife's favorite Psalm! I agree on the diet and have went both that route and tried many oils, I feel like it will take a move of God to change her mindset towards trying any route to healing at this point. I can no longer reason with scripture, or how me and the kids feel, or even explaining how something she thought was abnormal was actually very normal, I'm now just accepting what is and leaning on God's grace to keep me from falling. But please dont take that last statement to mean that i have this all figured out, have been the greatest husband all the time, or that I have always leaned on Him, if it was up to me, i would probably still be thinking i could figure this all out, and putting together science experiments to debunk her theories. But i do want her to know that evrything i have tried, every doctor ive taken her to, moving to an apartment for six months, taking a sabbatical to try and get to the bottom of this, is because i do love her, and want her to be able to see the good more than the bad, the joys in life again... I know there's a big heart in her, I have seen it, I remind her of it when I can. I understand it takes Faith to be OK with such a lovely heart being stolen away without warrant, maybe God wants me to not just understand that mentally, but really feel it. I struggle with the feeling it part a lot. Thanks for listening and bless you Sister, LeeP.

Amen, thank you Sister LeeP

Thank you for your words of encouragement, and your prayers. I praise God that He led me to this wonderful website, His glory is evident in your kind words, and in all those who have taken the time to reach out. May God bless & keep you, LeeP

Thanks so much for the response, it helps a lot to hear that someone has faced a similar road as she has and is now blessing others with there own story. I really do feel like I need to just let go, and just pray and support, it's just when things get really, really bad, I immediately go back to wanting to fix it. I will say that although this has been beyond bearable of a situation that has gone on now for a few years, I am close to God now than I ever was, and I feel like I understand the truth of the Gospel, wher as before this all started, although at the time I was a youth leader at my church, and then doing worship band, I didn't totally get it, meaning there was some of me mixed in, along with some of how others perceived me, I praise God that he has open my eyes to the true Word now, even though it has taken this unrelenting storm we are in. Thanks again, and bless you too Brother, LeeP

Thanks for the advise and response. I would say that a lot of things you mention have happened, but I think I've just had a hard time seeing it because a lot of times I have been the target for these accusations of not knowing how to love, not being saved, etc. I would also say that I have read those verses in 1 John probably 20 times, and even used them in this situation, but for some reason I was reading them wrong until I read your post and went back there. I had been using that to mean to test her, but she is a devout Christian, and does believe in the finished work of atonement that Jesus did for us on the cross, so, I had a hard time questioning it, but it is her that needs to test the spirit that she feels she is receiving this from. Would she do that through prayer? Or would she need to directly attempt to speak, whether outwardly, or in her head and question who this is from? And how will she know she's getting the answer, I know that Satan can disguise himself as an angel of light, but I guess he can't go so far as to state that through Jesus, and by His work only can we again have fellowship with the Father and the promise of it for eternity. Again, thank you for opening my eyes to see that scripture in a different light. I do believe there is a real phisical ailment here as well, but her attempt and motivation to pursue an answer to it has left ever since the mental side of things, and her perspective on following the Spirit have changed.

Yes, she is almost 40, these things came up around age 37, the psychosis like symptoms, and years before she would have these random bouts of just uncontrollable rage that we tried fighting off with her using a heavy bag, exercise, like sprint intervals, sometimes it would help but it was all too taxing on her, we had a 6month old at the time too. She would say I just need a release, that was before things went downhill with her energy and health.

HI all, Over the past several years my wife's health has been declining, disabling fatigue out of nowhere, random pains, anger outbursts resembling a fight or flight response, etc. We went to every doctor you could think of, even to the Mayo clinic to get some kind of diagnosis, and nothing came from it. After returning from Mayo, which was sort of our hail mary, and getting no answers, things started to change quickly mentally with her. Long story short two years later she has this belief that there is a group of people making her, and many others sick, and now most of her time is spent taking pictures of random imperfections around the house, or from something we bought from the store, or a pattern in the sky, and on and on. Now this taking picture thing basically controls her day to day. The issue is that she believes that she was lead to all of this by God. Her surrender to Jesus she says is what drives her to continue to follow what the thoughts in her mind tell her to do. She believes these thoughts are from the Spirit, or in some cases directly from Jesus and she needs to follow. I have spent probably the cumulative of several days discussing scriptures, asking about what fruits are being oroduced, etc, it always comes back to, "I have Faith in the living Jesus, the one who was resurrected, I'm doing these things even though they don't make sense to me because of my Faith that He is asking me to do these things. I can't not do them." I've went through free will with her, spoke about everyone's duty to spread the gospel, and questioning how this is accomplishing that, but she believes that thsee things that Jesus has told her will be revealed to everyone soon and the faith she had in it before anyone else knew would be for His glory. I know many will recommend the MH route, and we have went down that road as well, at one point it was too out of control, I was worried about the well being of our children so I had her committed. Nevertheless, this beliefilm has never relented. I'm at a point now where I'm just waiting for God to move and doing my best to make it from one day to the next. I feel like a single parent with an extra adult child, plus I work full time. Just looking for some help gething through this belief of hers, I truly believe if that could be broken down by the washing of the Word, we might be able to move forward. We are both lovers and followers of Jesus, just one of us has a different opinion of what that means. Thanks for taking the time to read this.

Thank you Brother George for this post. I know it was from many years ago, but, at the moment, for my family, this specific issue has been plaguing our family for over two years now. What started over 3 years ago as a search to find the reason for my wifes extreme fatigue, and occasional unprovoked fits of rage, has become something, much, much, more. She claims that Jesus came to her, and told her that this sickness was due to "attackers", who plant these machines releasing chemicals in our cars, house; and they use sirens and car horns to mask the machine noise. But she believes it's a much bigger attack, the whole town basically, and God plans to use this, and her faith in what Jesus told her to turn lots of lives to Jesus. But, our family life has been stagnant for two years, we have two kids that need their Mom, and a husband that is at his wits end. God has used this to strengthen my faith in Him, to seek the truth in the Word, but no matter what Word I bring to light to her, she has an excuse how this situation is different. This storm in our lives has been going on for a long, long, time, and spiritual pride is at the heart of it. Even though she spends many hours in the day in either a devotion, or the Word, I feel like her eyes are not open to truth. I cannot get her to go before an elder, and I cannot even get her to go back to Church. Oh how I have prayed, and pleaded, and gave, and gave myself to her sickness, working and taking care of kids, meals, etc, and even taking a month off to find a doctor that has answers. Spiritual pride is just completely real in my life right now, and I felt moved to express how blind we can become with it. I continue to pray that God will move on this, and break these chains.

Thank you Brother George for this post. I know it was from many years ago, but, at the moment, for my family, this specific issue has been plaguing our family for over two years now. What started over 3 years ago as a search to find the reason for my wifes extreme fatigue, and occasional unprovoked fits of rage, has become something, much, much, more. She claims that Jesus came to her, and told her that this sickness was due to "attackers", who plant these machines releasing chemicals in our cars, house; and they use sirens and car horns to mask the machine noise. But she believes it's a much bigger attack, the whole town basically, and God plans to use this, and her faith in what Jesus told her to turn lots of lives to Jesus. But, our family life has been stagnant for two years, we have two kids that need their Mom, and a husband that is at his wits end. God has used this to strengthen my faith in Him, to seek the truth in the Word, but no matter what Word I bring to light to her, she has an excuse how this situation is different. This storm in our lives has been going on for a long, long, time, and spiritual pride is at the heart of it. Even though she spends many hours in the day in either a devotion, or the Word, I feel like her eyes are not open to truth. I cannot get her to go before an elder, and I cannot even get her to go back to Church. Oh how I have prayed, and pleaded, and gave, and gave myself to her sickness, working and taking care of kids, meals, etc, and even taking a month off to find a doctor that has answers. Spiritual pride is just completely real in my life right now, and I felt moved to express how blind we can become with it. I continue to pray that God will move on this, and break these chains.