Invisible

I agree whole-heartedly with you alien. It's a real problem in thinking that I've seen often in the chat room- on the boards too. It's not (for most) as simple as "surrendering" to Jesus or trusting god or any of that. It infuriates me when people minimize our mental disorders as if they are a choice- as if they are just something we can suck up and get over. I get enough of that from my family I definitely don't need it from my internet family too. I am sorry if I came across as saying that surrendering to Jesus is the only solution needed, it is not. I have managed it, but it has cost me in terms of blood, sweat and tears and I am still nowhere near to being "normal". I will say that surrendering to Jesus is a good start though, the love, and faith, I feel from God is a steady rock which helps me go on. It allows me to Know that I am not alone. I will still urge people to get the help they need though, but pair it WITH faith and prayer, for I feel that is more effective than just drugs alone. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ Now Oldshep I have had this conversation a few times with people, and I truely understand how you can see that I am putting myself down with my chat handle. The truth is a little different though to what is seen. I know who I am. I am prideful, stubborn, stiff necked and rebellious, and so my name invisible is not because I want to hide. It is instead a reflection of what I want to become, I desire to do the will of God so much that when people see me, they say "There goes a man who follows God's heart". I desire to become invisible within the love of God so that when people see, and speak to me they do not see the prideful, rebellious person I am/was, but instead they see and feel the power of God's love moving through me. Still have a long road to travel.

This article makes interesting reading. http://www.foxnews.com/us/2012/03/30/mother-faces-contempt-jail-for-baptizing-children/?test=latestnews

Though they make up some of the dates (such as Christmas), Easter is pretty well certain as being the day that Jesus died. The bible mentions that Jesus was crucified the day before Passover started, and in the evening the Roman soldiers had to break the condemned people legs so that they would not have to "work" during Passover. When they came to Jesus they found he seemed to be already dead, and so pushed a spear into his side to make sure. As they did so, blood and water came out.

I had read that he was suspended from school for possession of a controlled substance (drugs), but I do not know if this is true. As to why he was in a gated community, his dad lived there (not sure if he was divorced or not, though the fact that his mother has a different last name may indicate that). Treyvon Martin was supposedly there to watch a basket ball game on TV, and during the half time break went to the gas station to buy drinks/snacks and was killed by Mr Zimmerman on his back. Ok. The articles I read did not mention his father lived in the gated community. OK here is some info that may or may not help. Found on that fount of knowledge, Wikipedia. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Shooting_of_Trayvon_Martin

I had read that he was suspended from school for possession of a controlled substance (drugs), but I do not know if this is true. As to why he was in a gated community, his dad lived there (not sure if he was divorced or not, though the fact that his mother has a different last name may indicate that). Treyvon Martin was supposedly there to watch a basket ball game on TV, and during the half time break went to the gas station to buy drinks/snacks and was killed by Mr Zimmerman on his back.

This touches on a difficult and painful part of my life. If you have read my testimony, then you have read that I was/am a depressive with strong suicidal tendencies, and have been for many years (19 and counting). unfortunately (and again this is on show in my testimony) I am to dumb and stubborn to see a mental health professional. This has lead to many a time where I have tasted/felt death when i should not have (they are images/feelings/tastes that I will never forget). Thankfully I have God in my life, all the times I have desired death that much that I have held a barrel of a gun in my mouth, held a knife against the veins and arteries in my arms, felt that rope tightening around my neck. God has managed to give me something to stand on (metaphorically and physically). I cannot understand it all, and I still have not seen a mental health professional (to my shame, i am still too stubborn), but I can tell you that by surrendering myself to God in those darkest of times, that God has slowly lifted me up to a place where death no longer has such a deep hold on me, a place where my "normal" is a place where most people would only be sad, and the number of days where I want to kill myself has dropped drastically. I would urge all people who feel the call of death to see a reputable mental health professional, now if only I could convince myself of that..............................

In the end though, if space tourism takes off (and i think it will), this will pay for it's self many times over. I tell you know if I had the money I would buy myself a seat or more and go. Just to see the earth from space live, to gaze across the magnificence of God's creation and to be humbled by the sight of His awesome handiwork. Man that would be worth every single last dollar.

There has been a lot made of the fact that it may have been racially motivated. That I disagree with with. Mr Zimmerman is a 1/2 blood himself (Mexican-white) and so i doubt it was racially motivated (though I may be wrong). However here are the facts that I have read. 1. Mr Zimmerman, acting as a member of his neighborhood watch scheme was patrolling his gated community in his car. 2. Mr Zimmerman spots a suspicious person walking in his gated community. At which point he call the police to let them know what was going on. 3. Mr Zimmerman then tells the police dispatcher that "he is going to follow this individual" To which the police dispatcher tells him "No, do not do that" 4. At some point, Mr Zimmerman gets out of his car with a gun strapped to his waist. 5. Probably at this point heated words are exchanged between the two, and Mr Zimmerman draws his gun and shoots the kid. 6. police turn up, and ask Mr Zimmerman what happened, Mr Zimmerman replies that the kid got aggressive with him and that he shot him in self defense, calling on the "stand your ground" law that Florida has (which by the way is supposed to be a defensive law, and only for when you have no way to escape). now I admit that this is probably not a complete picture, but this is what many different news sources seem to agree on. in my humble opinion, Mr Zimmerman only did one thing right, and that was to call the police, the rest is pure stupidity and something we should all learn from. in this case it is what NOT to do if we see a suspicious person in our neighborhood.

Though I have not heard the Jesse Jackson/Blank panthers rhetoric about this slaying, I will say that I do not believe that this killing is racially motivated. I will say that is IS Stupidity motivated. I am still shaking my head at just some of the things that Mr Zimmerman did. I mean OK so calling the police to report what he believed was a suspicious character is OK, but then to act the aggressor and follow someone who may potentially be dangerous, then to ramp up the aggression by getting out of his car, and then to go and confront the person!!! man this guy could have written the book on stupidity. Final insult: To use a DEFENSIVE Law in order to justify his actions. Mr Zimmerman from what I have read cannot use this "Stand your ground law" to defend his actions because he was the aggressor and was not in any way shape or form 'standing his ground'. Final thoughts: Mr Zimmerman acted in a pre-empted, and pre-thought out manner, and then followed through on his actions. this in my book is murder.

I would not mind the operators job. I mean it must take an hour to fill that bucket.

The way things are going at the moment, I very much doubt that I will be able enjoy any sort of retirement by the time I am 75. I suspect by that point the government will have spent all my SS, and taken my 401(k) to pay for their retirement (at age 40). Not bitter, just pessimistic.

Some more tips that might come in handy and limit the damage. 1. Check you bank balance on a regular basis, that way you can immediately see if someone has swiped your card. 2. Check you credit scores on a regular basis as well, that way you can see if someone has swiped your ID 3. Never leave your drivers licence on view in your wallet, with mobile phones as they are today someone can easily snap a picture of your license and use that to apply for credit cards etc. If I have any more pieces of advice, I will post them.

depending on which browser you use as well, there are add-ons which can help. For firefox look for WOT (web of Trust), users can rate a website on how trust worthy it is. Google Chrome also has security addons which can help as well. Final tip, when checking out of an online store, Make sure that in the address bar it says https://www............ instead of http://www....... the s at the end designates that it is a secure server it is using. Now do not get me wrong, all of these things will not stop the determined id thief, but it will stop 95% of casual thieves. Other online tips. Never use an easy to guess password, always use a password which uses letters and numbers in both upper and lower case, and if you can remeber it use symbols as well. this makes passwords very difficult to hack. Here is a good website to check how tough your passwords are to crack. http://www.passwordmeter.com/

SWIFT = Society for Worldwide Interbank Financial Telecommunication Wikipedia: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Society_for_Worldwide_Interbank_Financial_Telecommunication Using SWIFT in a hostile/aggressive role news link: http://www.nytimes.com/2012/03/16/world/middleeast/crucial-communication-network-expelling-iranian-banks.html Hope this helps your understanding.

You know this has been a most interesting thread. And I am going to try and stick my oar in again . It is in our nature to label a person on certain characteristics that they display, in truth my handle came from such a label. If we allow these labels to effect us, then we in effect confirm those labels in other peoples eyes. For example, Monarchy has stressed he hates being called a KJVO kind of guy, yet the more he has argued against such a label, the more it makes me think that it is an apt label (just using it as an example man. As far as I am concerned you are a fellow bro who prefers a particular translation above all others). So what to do about it? Well as childish as this may seem, there is an old kids rhyme that I think does apply here; "Sticks and Stones may break my bones, but words cannot hurt me". I personally have been given more labels than i care to think about, and most of them have not been attractive or good, and when I allowed them to hurt me I would get all agnry and just feed the fire. once I learned just to ignore the labels, then I began to see that people would be willing to change that label once they began to know me.