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Mimi

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  1. By the way, things are going a lot better I still struggle with thoughts on not "being good enough" and what-not... But everything is a lot better.. Thanks to all you wonderful people for your prayers and thoughs! =)
  2. Now I am crying here.. Thank you all for your wonderful words of encouragement and prayer! I am so thankful for whatever prayer I can get (and at times I get tired of praying for myself, so it's good to know others are too! ) I still feel kinda "messed up" sometimes, but I am really working on becoming a frog..! (F.ully R.elying O.n G.od) Hey, some girls want to turn frogs into princes, I am Gods beloved Princess trying to turn myself into a frog... Thanks again everyone God bless
  3. Thank you so much... You have to know that just that short simple reply made my heart smile... I appreciate your prayers! God bless =)
  4. It's been a long time since I've been on worthyboard now... And just reaaally needed to talk to someone right now, but the gruop I was thinking of on facebook isn't such a good idea, 'cause all my friends can read that, and right now I need to talk without the there, even though they are my best friends... Well, this is a long story, but I'll try to cut it short(er), so that people actually bother to read it, and so that I don't have to sit here all night... But basically I got confirmed at this wonderful church here, about 30 minutes from where I live, some.. 3 years ago or something? And there I met many wonderful people! Some I knew from that church and school (it is a school as well) before, and some new people... And I made some new best friends (being an MK, and having good Christian friends several places, I have several best friends.. Which I am deeply grateful to God for! Such a blessing!) Two of the people I met are called Line, and Andreas.. Line has become one of my very very best friends, and I care for her so much! And Andreas... I don't even know how I should explain this... He started out just being a friend.. A very good and great friend! But he started feeling more, and so did I. But I had decided that I was not going to have a boyfriend yet.. I felt that it was smarter for me to wait.. But in the course of the 3 years we have known each other now, we have become closer and closer, and, on occation have held hands and he has held me tight in his arms... So, in one way, we acted like we were boyfriend and girlfriend, but still weren't.. If you understand? But this got to be harder and harder... We both knew we should just be friends right now, as we feel we are too young to have to commit ourselves to anything (we are both 17). So, we decided we had to JUST be friends.. No more holding hands, no more late night calls till 3 in the morning... Just friends. We decided that three times! (we kept going back to how it used to be...) But eventually, my best friend Line had been acting weird for many months... Kind of distant, and refusing to explain why... One day she finally told me she herself had figured out why, and finally felt able to tell me.. She was hurting, because she felt like I was more interested in being with Andreas that her (we are all very good friends, along with one other boy.. Just a group of friends) I didn't think that I was any different towards her since I became interested in him, but aparently I was without knowing it.. The months that she was hurting was very distructive for our friendship, and she became more distant and cranky, and I became more and more afraid to contact her, in fear of being rejected again... But, to make a long story short, she and I talked, and I told her that I was planning to talk to Andreas again, and figure out a way to just be friends. And not just for a week this time, but UNTIL we are ready to be together! (neither wants to date till we think we can marry that person, and even though we both want to spend the ret of our lives with the other, we are still only 17, and think it is wise to wait..) But she and I talked, and it "all became better".. And I went on a picnic with Andreas and we talked about it, and both agreed it was the best thing to do... Everything was fine after that... Untill the devil started "shooting me with arrows of doubt"... Arrow of feeling that I'm not good enough, and that my Line and Andreas do not care for me as much anymore, since I hurt Line, and Andreas and I are just friends now.. I've talked to Andreas since then, and he reminded me that they all still care very much for me! So that made it better, but then i talked to Line on MSN, and, even though she was probably just busy, I felt like she was being distant again... And again, my self confidence goes falling down like the stock markets (*attemts to laugh at myself, but am not quite in the mood..*), and I feel all down again.. Oh, and I have a friend from school who has suicidal thoughts and has recently been raped, and I get so tired of (only on MSn, since I never see her otherwise) trying to convince her that God loves her, I love her, other people love her, she should not kill herself + + + Which really wears on me.. But I can't just block her, 'cause I worry about her! And now Line and her family are going to Andreas' house tomorrow for lunch, and he wondered if I was working tomorrow.. When I said yes he said that that was too bad, 'cause Line and her family were coming over to their house for kuch, and he was wondering i I also wanted to come. I was sad because I couldn't, but said that I'm sure they'd have a good time =) And then he askes me (we are very open and honest) if I would have felt bad if he hadn't invited me.. And I answered that I probably would have, but that he shouldn't feel bad for not inviting me anytime! That O understand if he feels like just being with Line, and that that isn't a problem =) That it would mainly hurt if they went behind my back (there is nothing between them at all, but they are also best friends, and like to talk sometimes too), 'cause then I'd feel like they felt they couldn't talk to me... WOW, I am rambling on now, and it probably isn't even making any sense.. =S But basically, I feel down.. I know I should look to God for love and acceptance (even though i know they love and accept and care for me!), but it is hard.. When I already feel bad I think everyone is unhappy with me and whatever... I think I'm having a hard time explaining this stuff here.. I mean, how do you explain three years, and complicated things in one thing here... Anyhow... Basically, I need prayer.. I need prayer for that I will remember that God loves me no matter what, and that even if I am having a hard time he is always there! I need prayer to not be down, and to not take everything wrong... And I need prayer to, if I should tell my friends all about my feelings (they know most of it, but I have a hard time saying it all, in case I hurt their feeling or something..), that God will tell me the right way to say it... Please, help me.. Sometimes it is hard to be the one who always wants other people to feel ok.. I always feel like it is my responibility to help people, eve if I can't. And that, along with my feelings which I sometimes feel the need to hide so I don't hurt anyone, or make myself look weak or dumb, makes me so tired... And I need to feel loved.. I know God loves me, but sometimes I don't feel it.. I know He loves me, and that he has provided me with a good family, and good friends and more that I need of material things.. But when my heart is hurting like this I have trouble remembering/feeling it... Pray for me... In Christ, *hugs* And thanks for your prayers..
  5. O, I havn't read any body elses answers, so if I repeat anything that has been said, so be it... I know I am only 15, but I just want to suggest that you read ''I kissed dating goodbye'', by Joshua Harris... I am reading it, and I think you might find answers to a lot of your questions there...! God bless! *hugs*
  6. ok, thanks for the explanation... *huggles* :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug:
  7. Rather than the correct spelling of His name, more importantly is what does He mean to us? Amen!!
  8. I don't think that was very nice....
  9. I belive that a person should wait until marraige to have sex with a person... Plus, even if you sleep with them, but do not have sex, but you do go near the idea of it (kissing a lot, touching.........ect.ect.ect.) that that is still a sin....
  10. THANKS BLAZE!! That was neat! *huggles* :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug:
  11. I mean live, sorry :x:
  12. I am too young to vote (plus I don't lie in America, lol), but if I could, I would most definitly go for George Bush!! He is a christian, and throughout this whole 7-11 thing, I think he did very well!
  13. Glad you got to have a long talk wioth your Dad in heaven! Hope it all works out (according to his plan) GBU! Love ya with Gods love! *HUGGLES* :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug:
  14. actually, maybe it is not so good, it is probably more for someone who isn't really depressed... Never mind, forget it...
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