Adoni~Is~Alive~4~Ever

Well well, guess what, Broc and I are still best buds! God has cleared ....most...the feelings out of my heart now so now i can focus on who HE wants me to be, and learn who Broc is. Some things have changed. One is next fall Lord willing I will be moving to Chicago to Moody Bible Inst. at age 16 *yikes* We are still interested in mission work. Though we said once im 18, i would kinda wait till im 20 to get anything serious going. I mean at age 20 i will be done with college Lord willing! Then i can focus on who God has me being and where God has me going rather on then that plus school! Anyhow! Much love! Please keep praying! Becka

If he's too old for me then wow... My parents are 5 years apart. And some other people I know are 10 years apart. Im sorry, I dont see how he is too old for me. If you want to explain further be my guest. He is now talking about going away for a year on an oversea's project. He wouldnt leave till march 06 gets back march 07 which means it would be 9 months till i turned 18. If we still know each other after a year of not talking. Even if he is just my best friend that still is gonna be hard. I mean, Gods will is best! And I guess that will really dertermin things! GEEZ really will it!

Thanks for the thoughts!

Thanks Micah! You've really helped! Most people see my age an run from my questions! Thank you! Yeah! I think God is truely building Broc and I into better "waiters" when it comes to just about anything! lol I've noticed ever since him and I have been "admiring each other" I seem to have patients not only with relationships but with other people too! I've watched both of us mature so much since we first met. I read my old words and I wonder what I was thinking. I seemed so immature. But yeah, I've defintly been given a lesson in patients, and i know i still have much more to learn! Thanks again!

Most of you must have over looked this cause a lot of you have said that I need to tell my parents. Of course I'd never meet him in person alone! 1) Bad scene incase it is dangerous. 2) I want my parents to be in on any relationship I have. 3) I think we both would be like umm...so now what lol 4) Who would take the pictures jk lol A lot of you have said I have an education to be thinking of, I forgot to mention, I am a 3.8 gpa student. And most likely to be graduated this June. We are just friends. If you didn't catch the note about IN A FEW YEARS, we would like to court. Like once I'm 18! I have heard you, and will think about it! Another thing, mind you I have recieved hand written letters post marked from Maine. So either means he is really in Maine or is, hiring some one to send them from Maine! Which would be really weird but could happen, and I'm sure it has. But I live in Washington and he ''lives'' in Maine. It's not like I have to worry about walking down the street and being grabbed by him. I worry more about the people I've never talked to stalking me then him. I met him on a Christian Chatroom. I saw his godlyness and I Pmed him and we shared testimonys and such. And kinda started there I guess! ~Becka

I have noticed in a post at another message board that in a "Purity Pledge" post that every time some one admits they have messed around, they talk about guilt, or something on the lines of being ashamed. I am going to open this post to the thought of why we keep ourselves pure, and what is unashamed love. I am going to be quoting from various writings in this post. Id like to begin by turning to, "A Trail Of Roses" written by my friend Nathan. Quote He saw a smile come and then freeze on her face as she looked more closely at the rose. Tim did too. There was absolutely no mistaking the cut-glass vase. Tim saw that she recognized it. His gaze travelled from the vase to the remains of the magnificent bouquet - a tired, slighty ratty red rose. It was not as resplendent as it had been earlier. Somehow, it seemed more common, now that the other roses were gone. In that story we see how Tim and Kari go from a loving relationship, to a rubished relationship. Tim was ashamed in the long run, wasn't he. There is a book in the Bible that talks about Unashamed Love. A book that most people never read. It's Song of Songs. Now Song of Songs is a short 8 chapter book of the Bible, but yet only few read it. It's not because it's too long. Not because it's too boring. It's because the book of Song of Songs is about "An Intoxicating Love". When people read this, they freak and are stunned the Bible would hold such content. But what it is, is actually unashamed love. The way love is meant to be. So now you are reading this going, well what is "unashamed love". Where is Rebecca's point. Again I Quote from, "A Trail Of Roses". Quote One girl asked Tim if she could have a small white rose that was on the edge of the bouquet. Surely he wouldn't miss it! Tim decided that Kari wouldn't know the difference, so willingly gave it. Another girl asked, and another girl asked. Each one wanted one from the edge - little inconspicuous roses. Tim thought "well there are so many, I guess giving a few away wouldn't hurt." Maybe Tim was giving out roses, but maybe your giving out your purity. Maybe your giving out a kiss, saying to yourself, "oh a kiss is easily forgotten. Harmless." What ever the case is, your giving away thoughs little white roses, little physical touches; there you are thinking it's harmless. Well I have news for you, it does indeed harm your life. What's the reason you can't read Song of Songs with out a blush, it's because your mind is impure. You don't look at the relationship and go, "that is what I want." You say, "Ahhh, why does God allow that there?" That is how a relationship should be. Pure, innocent, and unashamed. Remember this next time your about to kiss, or how ever far you go, "Ashamed or Unashamed, to wait, or not to wait." Do you want to be ashamed with that blush on your face when you read Song of Songs. Remember, the unashamed love gives us a warning, Song of Songs 2:7, ""....Do not arouse or awaken love until it so desires." CONTINUED People who awaken love before it is went to be, are the one who feel ashamed. They are the one's who will look back on the past and shutter. Here is a question for you. Out of all the Christians you have met who have had sex outside marriage, how many say they wish they hadn't? I've never met any. Here is a question for you if you have had sex outside marriage. When ever you look at that person, was your first thought? Out of most worldy relationships, when a bf and gf have messed around, and break up, why is it that they tend to hate each other, or dislike each other. Many people blame it on, "well he dumped me." Or the what nots, but look a little deeper. Most relationship end in anger, hate, and so on due to sin. You know what type of sin. Having sex outside marriage. God made man and woman to have a relationship. God created it for Husband and Wife. It was created for good. Humans destroyed it. But Christians can hold on to the good if they hold on to their purity, not only in physical sense, but in mind too. Wanting a husband and wife relationship outside marriage? The world has showed us all the fun, and fascinating things about it. But what they don't show you is what hurt you most. That is being ashamed, guilt, and sexual diseases. Here is a little story- "There was a man who washed windows. He used a rag and cleaner to do so. One day he looked at his rags, but not one was clean. They all had dark stains on them. He knew the stains where not from him using them. But he didn't want to throw them away, because he loved these rags ever so much. So he cleaned them with bleach. Soon after that, the bleached rags got tossed by someone other then the man into dirty rags. The dirty rags rubbed off onto the clean ones and made them dirty again. And the man searched for his rags, but he could not find them. For they where hidden among the dirty rags. But in one last attempt, the man found one brightly colored white clean rag, that still had some of the glass cleaner on it. He had found one clean rag and was pleased." The man who washes the windows is God. The Rags are Christians. The glass cleaner is the Bible. The dirty rags are the temptations of the world. The someone else was the devil. The one white rag, was a christian who did not give into the temptation. Now that one rag with the cleaner on it, was a Christian who still obeyed the Bible. Now in the Bible it says, "I am not ashamed of the Gospel of Christ." But yet, are you ashamed when you read Song of Songs? Thats part of the Bible. I just want you to realize that when you break that promises to God, and your future spouse, there is more too it then that. Here is a list of what sexual incounter outside marriage does: 1) Causes Guilt 2) You become Ashamed 3) Causes anger 4) Causes you to break a promise to God 5) Causes you to disobey the Bible 6) Cause you to be a hyprocrite(sp?) 7) Sets a bad testimony 8) Causes future issues with a spouse 9) Can cause health issues 10) If health issues happen, then you are not taking care of the Temple of the Holy Spirit that dwells in you. Now, you might be angry with me saying, well I cant help it I was raped. But in the OT God says He does not count some one a murder if they accidently kill some one. In the same way, God will help you through you problems. It might be to late for you. You feel the guilt and are ashamed. Well, God has forgiven you too. But we all know there is punishment, and He is firm with His punishment. But I don't have the answer with how that will impact your life. I just know your not alone!

So I met a guy online. He is a christian, and is 3 years older then me. We were friends for about a month. During that month I began to be very much so attracted to his strong biblical views and christian attitude. I let him know my feeling for him, and the feelings where the same. Now, as the months went on our friendship grew and so did our liking for each other. After about a month of talking to each other knowing we both liked each other, we grew fond of the idea if God allows, to court in a few years. We really are at peace with us getting married some day. We have received parents permission, and prayed oh so much to our Heavenly Father about the issue at hand. We gave the relationship to God. And believe He is either going to marry us, or break us. We are at peace with either, as long as its Gods will. Not only do we talk online but over the phone and through snailmail. He had written a letter to my parents, and I wrote one to his mother since his father isn't there. We had a week end break where we didn't speak to each other or look at pictures or anything of that sort, but just prayed that whole week end and wrote our thoughts. Right now we are just living life as friends. He did ask me to be the third strand in his life until God either kept me there or replaces me. As in, that bible verse talking about a man with three strands, God, himself, and as I view a helper. And to me a helper is a woman from looking at where God makes Adam a helper! Now many people say you can't love some one you have never met, is that true? How do you know Gods will when it comes to this? Is it right of me to have said yes to being a third strand? -Mind you, I do know I am 15 (almost 16), and he is 18(almost 19). But I just need advice! Cause I know he's been such a blessing to me, but how do you know when love is real? And not some dumb High School emotional crush?-

really! I live in Gig Harbor! Near the big city park! cool!

I was born Dec. 13 1989 at Tacoma Genral in Tacoma Washington. At birth I was instantly put into a room, this room is where all the sick babys and babys who most likely are going to die go. I was kept in the room till I was 5 weeks old or so. The doctors worried that I wouldn't survive because I was so sick when I was born, when I was born I had a high case of the flu with a 100.0 fever.(or higher) I got better! Lots of prayers where prayed. I attended Burley Bible Church till I was 6.5 years old. At age 6 my sister(Elizabeth) told me the story of Noah. She told me if I didn't pray to God that I would be drowned with the sinners. Mind you she was only 9.5 years old. That same night she lead me in the "sinners prayer." After we left Burley Bible church we attended Fox Island Aliance church. There I proved the sunday school teacher wrong. She had said that Jesus had sinned. I proved her wrong and was asked to leave sunday school that day (mom and dad still dont know). Soon after my father mother and three sisters left that church and started attending Discovery Baptist Church. I have ever since then been going there and love it. At age 8 I was laying under the night sky and saw a hand shaped cloud point and heard a voice say "go" i asked "where" the hand pointed over to a cloud that looked like INDIA and then i said " There?" and it pointed again there was a cloud such as Egypt then the voice said "GO send the Word." At age 10 I started loosing my hair, the doctors sent me to doctor after doctor. Soon I discover that i had a diessies(sp?) called alleopichia (sp?). I lost all my hair. I was told that my hair would not come back, a year and a half later all my hair was back.(I still loose hair though)At age 11 I was baptised.At age 12(7th grade) I attended Tacoma Baptist Middle School. There I was told that I would never succed in life. My grades dropped and I became rather sad, I lost all my friends but one.I tried to comit suicided about 4 times that summer. Later that summer i went to NY and got cheered up by my cousins. That new school year i went to Harbor Christain High School as a freshman (skipping 8th grade.) That winter i had gotten rather sad again and tried to kill myself again about 3 times. Then on Dec. 29th i left for Org. with Ish hacham and EZE. There I talked to Ish hacham a lot. He said some things that really woke me up. I recomitted my life to Christ. Now I am here 14 an a aunt! Looking into going to the mission field as well!

:hug: Dont forget to pray and read the bible never give up! :hug:

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Can anyone give me some of the main doctrine of a hindu person? thanks! Rhebekka

Well.... all i can say is... who knows, for idont even know myself as well as i wish too! We will see in the end! I think that you maybe right Gail! maybe it is, Maybe its not! LOL I am always trying to find some one for him but then find myself ""inlove with him""

lol i knew i shouldnt have told you gail lol! Welcome Btw Gail! She's doesnt know that much more! thank God! Gail....Just cause I am inlove with him doesnt mean its both ways yah know! But we are close like a brother and sister! (and not the brother an sister your think of, like family Bro's and Sis's LOL) we'll i'll have to wait and see Gail! We just dont know the future! what does it hold for us! LOL Oh....Rebecca means like Gods chosen one. I hope it doesnt mean faith LOL Thats my middle name LOL it would be Rebecca(Faith) Faith Sayers LOL

LOL! I have many male influense! LOL But i would love to have yours as well! That way i have them 24/7 LOL Thanks for the advice yall! It was the best i have heard yet! Rhebekka gives all you :hug: hugs! lol :il: God knows my future!