I want to thank everyone for their input and their prayers. You have given me a lot to think about. I think I knew the answer before but I think it has been confirmed. I have forgiven him for what he has done, and I have forgiven him for not telling me, but like you said, will I always have this doubt. I have grandchildren and I don't think I would ever feel comfortable with him around them. I cringe just thinking about how they have already been around him. He has not been alone with them. I thank the Lord for that. When we started going out I told him all of my secrets, some of them pretty bad, but i wanted to be honest with him. He didn't return this coutesy. I think I would always be waiting for him to mess up. How can I take that chance. I don't think I can. I don't want to live my life in fear. I have prayed and I cannott feel peace from God about this relationship. It really hurts but I have to let him go. I know God makes us new people when we accept him, but like it was pointed out, why didn't he tell me. I do believe that he loves the Lord and is a new man, but I think I would always be wondering. I ask the Lord to forgive me for that. I ask for your continued prayers, both for myself and for James. Thank You