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Hey guys, please could someone help me???? I am in a state. I'm becoming Christian due to my boyfriend of two years showing me church. when I met him you wouldn't know that he was a Christian. I was just as bad! We had both partied, got wasted, slept around, although I never cheated on him. I have newly found God when he invited me to church and really want to follow him. He keeps putting pressure to keep sleeping with me when I don't want to. im seriously now a jealous person because on my birthday he decided to go out with friends and ended kissing another girl. I constantly find he's been lying to me about drinking or who he's with. He's messaging girls behind my back and it kills me. Through all of this he still goes to church and acts like a really good person! He told me I can't tell anyone that he cheated even when I had no one to talk to. He's been abusive just last week he pulled my hair during an argument because him and his friend were looking at naked women on the phone. He smashed ny phone up when he was angry which stopped me having contact with people when I was vulnerable. I thought he had changed but little things happen like that girl tonight. I made a mistake and in anger messaged her asking if something was going on. I love him to bits and am so scared il loose him and be alone. Through everything he can treat me like the best person ever and makes me feel complete. I don't want to lose him but I feel like il always be in this situation and its reading my heart. What do I do? To add to this I have none of my own friends. They are all his!