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The last few days have been incredibly difficult ... more intense than I thought I could bear. I honestly didn't think I would survive the last few days... had thoughts of giving up... thoughts of hopelessness, and even thoughts of dying. But I couldn't let go ... have you ever been in a place like that? You want to let go, but God has such a grip on you, that you can't let go ... He won't let you. LORD, I thought I knew what I needed... someone to rescue me, even one hug from a safe person ... but You knew better. Sometimes, we have to learn things by walking through the valley of the shadow of death. That's literally what it felt like. I've been through here before, many times.... and You have never let me walk through it alone. Oh, dear God, the pain.... !!!!! I thought to release the tears would kill me... and doing so felt like bursting through a huge dam reaching into the sky!! I felt like I was there again... I cried out long ago, and my help did not arrive. I was in a desolate place... without hope in sight... would this time be any different?! I've made some discoveries that are very painful ... ones that leave knots in my stomach even while trying to type this... and to type them in detail here would be wrong. But it is not something I would ever have chosen for myself... to make these discoveries. Sometimes, to look at things that have been hidden all our lives feels like death .... but in those death places ... God births something new. I can't see what it is just yet... but I know He has only good for me. I know He has only good for you, too. Romans 8:35-38 35 Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? shall tribulation, or distress, or persecution, or famine, or nakedness, or peril, or sword? 36 As it is written, For thy sake we are killed all the day long; we are accounted as sheep for the slaughter. 37 Nay, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him that loved us. 38 For I am persuaded, that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor powers, nor things present, nor things to come, 39 Nor height, nor depth, nor any other creature, shall be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord. Jeremiah 29:11 “For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the LORD, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end.” Psalm 23 (A Psalm of David.) 1 The LORD is my shepherd; I shall not want. 2 He maketh me to lie down in green pastures: he leadeth me beside the still waters. 3 He restoreth my soul: he leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for his name's sake. 4 Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me. 5 Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over. 6 Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the LORD for ever.
Hi everyone: Thank you for letting me be a member here. It looks like a good site, and it's easy to find your way around too. Would you mind praying for me, and also share some Bible verses to help me? I'll explain.. I am a Christian; have been since February 13th, 1985 at 9:58pm (Yes, I know exactly when!). My wife (or soon to be ex wife) is a Christian as well, she's been a Christian since 1983. On March 4th of this year, late afteroon, I arrived home at our house in the Seattle, WA area and found her with another man. I will not describe exactly where and what they were doing, but I'm sure if you think about it for a moment you can guess. I'm trying to be respectful here. It turns out they had been having an affair off and on over a period of years-and I had no idea. I can't believe it. Later that evening when I had recovered from the shock, we talked a bit. It was very awkward. My wife told me she wanted a divorce and "didn't want to go to church anymore." And I have been a stay at home dad since 2008, caring for our young adult son who has autism. So, that day I was also with no income and not much money in my wallet. I tried staying in our house for a few weeks because I had nowhere to go, no family close by to help me. My wife was around during the week and then on the weekends she went to her "friends" house. Toward the end of March, I checked myself into a local hospital. I had not been eating for quite some time and I had lost 30 pounds. While I was in the hospital, my wife essentially locked me out of the house, so when I was discharged, I was very, very close to going to a homeless shelter. I don't know why she had to lock me out of the house; while I was certainly very mad, I was not a danger to anyone. But I can't spend my time trying to analyze everything. I don't have enough energy for that. At the last minute, one of my sons in New Mexico arranged for me to fly to where he lives with my daughter in law and my grandsons. I am living there now, and I have to get a job, get on my feet, get my own place, etc. That, and deal with the horrendous stress of the divorce which is eating me up too. My wife, for whatever reason, is making life difficult for me even long distance. She's getting in the way of me getting access to funds that are rightfully mine, and just doing whatever she can to "get in my head." Me being without a job, and no money to speak of, I need every dollar freed up that I can get. My son has even paid for an attorney for me, and even the attorney is having a hard time. Can you get the picture that this is a nightmare for me? It is! Thank God for Jesus in my life. He's such a major lifeline to me right now. Please pray for just an overall improvement in my situation. I really need to get a job, but I am going to be honest and say I'm having a hard time getting through the day without sobbing. I sometimes ask The Lord how am I supposed to get a job when I can't keep my head together for a few hours at a time? And I really need my wife to cooperate on some things so I can get some money, any money, that's rightfully mine. I've been praying for my wife a lot, and it gives me peace inside when I do. I've also prayed for the guy she's with, that he will come to know Jesus as his savior. And a final request.. If anyone can offer some guidance, what are some great Bible verses that I can count on to remind me that God is not going to let me fail here? I'm not sure how to word it; some Bible verses that speak to God's restoration in my life in terms of not just money, but my spiritual life, my mental health, and just all around? I am trying to focus on just a few verses at a time and not an exhaustive study, as my brain is pretty fried and I can't concentrate very well at times. If you can help me I will appreciate it and please do pray for me. Thank you! John L.